Kill Me, Heal Me – Episode 18

The drama probably has had enough with killing our hearts through those torture and pain, and here’s a good news: the healing part is here! I’m so happy that the drama doesn’t wait until the final week to offer us the closure to certain things, and it’s kinda lessen up the pain when I think of the impending goodbye. Everything has to come to an end (including the drama sobs), but for Do-hyun and Ri-jin, their journey towards healing has just started with acknowledging their past, although it wasn’t all pretty and shiny.

[Episode 18]

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Ri-jin and Ri-on went back home after strolling around the park with Rina, and Ri-jin managed to persuade Ri-on into fetching the bicuits for the dog by teasing him with Yo-na’s kind of aegyo. LOL! Poor Ri-on still couldn’t get over the incident he had with Yo-na and he went inside the house. Ri-jin sent Rina to her kennel, but someone came over…and it was Se-gi. Ri-jin initially thought that he was Do-hyun, but he didn’t say anything; instead, Se-gi apologized for being late and asked her to run away with him.

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Se-gi: Sorry for being late. Let’s go.

Ri-jin: Where?

Se-gi: Anywhere. Let’s run away..first, from the terrifying memories.

Ri-jin: But..I don’t have any money right now.

Se-gi: I have…Cha Do-hyun’s card.

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Although he was 21 years late, Ri-jin remembered the promise they made when they were young and this time, she didn’t hesitate to take his hand. Awwwh. She sent a text to Ri-on informing him about her outing with Se-gi while assuring her brother that nothing would go wrong, because she knew Se-gi the best. Now that Ri-jin had recalled everything about her past, she realized that Se-gi was a part of Do-hyun which held the most painful memory, and she felt that the pain was left under her care. Thus, she wanted to try healing Do-hyun’s scar from now on.

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Se-gi wanted to know where Ri-jin would like to go, and he declared that her words would be the law to him from that moment. Eyyy so cheesy. She was more interested to find out the reason why he pretended not to know her when he first met her. He didn’t want her to recall those ugly memories, because what’s more important to him was for her to choose him. Se-gi confirmed that his memory and Do-hyun’s had became one, and he knew that Do-hyun had found out about everything, including his real identity. That shock caused him to go into dormant state for now, and Se-gi’s flashback told us what happened after the fire.

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Little Se-gi actually set the fire in front of the basement room where little Ri-jin was confined to, and the fire followed the flowing gasoline into the room. Jun-pyo managed to escape the room and saw his son standing there unfazed. Se-gi didn’t say anything when Jun-pyo asked him about the fire, but the kid soon passed out. Jun-pyo carried Do-hyun towards the entrance and the boy stirred up awake, but he didn’t remember anything about setting the fire. Do-hyun pleaded for his father to save Ri-jin and Jun-pyo handed over Do-hyun to a fireman before heading back towards the basement. Little Do-hyun was still blaming himself for everything that had happened and when the EMS staff asked him his name, he answered: Cha Do-hyun.

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Jun-pyo went back to the room and the fire had almost engulfed the entire room. Little Ri-jin was sitting there hugging her teddy but by the time Jun-pyo reached the room, the girl was already gone. He saw a rope hanging from the small window, and Mama Ji was the one who saved Ri-jin before smuggling her out of the place. Grandma Seo explained in the voice over that they received a letter who introduced herself as Seo-yeon’s friend, and they were told not to search for the girl since the friend would raise the kid. One thing that was true: Jun-pyo did get hurt while trying to save ‘Do-hyun’.

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Little Do-hyun recovered after the fire, but he was never the same again. When Madam Shin called him Jun-young, he completely ignored her and continued to play with the teddy which was left behind by Ri-jin. But then, his mother tried calling him Do-hyun…and he looked at her. She was taken aback, but she hugged him, assuring Jun-young that it was for better that he forget everything about the fire. She told him that he was the one and only Seungjin’s heir, Cha Do-hyun, and the boy continued to play with the teddy, hugging it tightly.

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That was how the original Jun-young believed that the original Do-hyun perished in that fire, and he made another personality which resembled his dead friend out of guilt. Ri-jin learned that Nana was not a new alter recently created by Do-hyun; the girl alter was born to replace little the 7-year old Ri-jin, but the alter stayed dormant since then, until Do-hyun met Ri-jin recently. Se-gi admitted that he was the one who started the fire to save Ri-jin, although the girl could end up dead. He just smiled when he said that she’s still alive, but only he knew what his really felt after the fire. Ri-jin felt that she was the reason for Se-gi to resent Do-hyun, and she was the cause for Do-hyun to develop his DID.

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Se-gi was about to argue with her when someone called Do-hyun’s phone, and Se-gi seemed to recognize Alex. That guy was Do-hyun’s best friend back during their high school days, but Se-gi’s reaction said that he had a bad history with that guy. Alex called Do-hyun because someone had been contacting him with the intention of finding out more about Do-hyun, and the oh-so-considerate friend thought that he should give Do-hyun a chance too to meet him. Se-gi agreed even after hearing that Alex was in need of money, and we heard from Ki-joon next why he was desperate. Alex had asked for USD 500K as his reward in return for sharing the valuable information about Do-hyun, and that friend was swamped with gambling debts. Ki-joon offered to wire 20% of the amount into Alex’s account and the rest would be given after Alex told him the info.

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Alex was not an easy guy, because he refused to accept the offer and insisted to have it go through as what he suggested before. Se-gi went to meet Alex and explained to Ri-jin that Alex was someone who used to blackmail Jun-young when he was in high school. Se-gi’s calling Do-hyun Jun-young! Se-gi was angry just from thinking about Alex, who was like a parasite to Do-hyun. Ri-jin secretly sent a text to Secretary Ahn, because she’s a smart lady. Yeah!

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Se-gi was eager to deal with Alex once they reached the place where he was going to meet him, but Ri-jin thought that she should go and meet Alex first. I know that she’s going to buy some time until Secretary Ahn went there, but that’s one dangerous move! The rules they agreed for Se-gi (No anger, no violence, and protect Do-hyun’s image) were still valid, because Ri-jin and Se-gi were not over yet. Plus…didn’t he say it earlier that Ri-jin’s words would be the law for him? Kid Se-gi could only curse through his gritted teeth as he realized that his words had come back to bite him. Hehehe! He let her go after vowing to kill Alex if he tried to hurt Ri-jin.

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The genre changed straight into thriller once Ri-jin stepped into the warehouse, and Ri-jin tried to joke while calming her own nerves. Alex came out of the dark and Ri-jin introduced herself as Do-hyun’s secretary. He mentioned that Ki-joon had offered him 500K, so he would ask double of that amount from Do-hyun, so that would be a total of 1 million dollar. But then, he found a liking in Ri-jin and thought that the amount could be negotiated as long as he got her. Urgh, scary.

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Se-gi was preaching the rules while cursing and Ri-jin was feeling threatened when Alex started to approach her, and she screamed, telling him not to come closer. She accidentally poked his nose until it was bleeding and he was mad. Lucky for Ri-jin, she could scream very well and Se-gi could hear her voice from outside. He ran into the warehouse and punched Alex before choking him, but Alex tried to stab him with a knife. Se-gi blocked it using his palm and he strangled Alex, fueled with intense rage. Seeing how Alex was on the verge of dying, Ri-jin screamed at Se-gi, telling him to stop before calling Do-hyun to come out. Do-hyun snapped back into his own self and realized that Ri-jin was there with him. Secretary Ahn arrived shortly afterwards, but he was a bit late to save the day this time.

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Ri-jin treated Do-hyun’s palm while rambling about what happened earlier thinking that Do-hyun was just like a man possessed by a ghost and returned to his ordinary self once she called his name. Well, you’re his shrink after all, Ri-jin. Ri-jin didn’t hide the fact that she remembered the origin of the name Cha Do-hyun, and he could only apologize to her. He really liked to hear her calling his name like that.

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Ri-jin: I hope that you won’t feel apologetic towards me. Although the memories I’ve recovered were not complete yet, there were good memories as well as the painful onea. Inside those good memories, there was my mother who rescued me from the fire, and there was the young Mr. Cha who visited me at 10 PM every night. To the lonely me without anyone to lean onto inside the dark, cold basement, you who risked your life to go to me every night, was my savior and my hope. That’s what made me cope with such condition back then, and because of you, I held on while waiting for you. Perhaps, the reason why my heart didn’t shatter into pieces was because of you.

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Ri-jin then apologized for being the reason why Do-hyun’s heart was broken into several pieces. She knew how hard it was for him to struggle against his alters by himself, for the sake of protecting the name Cha Do-hyun.

Ri-jin: That why..I’m going to give you a present. The name Cha Do-hyun. When someone asks you “Who are you?”, I’d like it if you say “I’m Cha Do-hyun” like before. Even if I call you Ferry Park, you have to get upset and say that you’re Cha Do-hyun. And I’d like it, if the person with that face and those eyes to be Cha Do-hyun.

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Do-hyun stared at her without saying anything except wiping her tears, and he sent her home. Do-hyun told her not to get sick, have nightmare, and worry about him..and Ri-jin wished the same for him before walking into the house. Do-hyun suddenly had his headache before he could get into the car..and Ferry appeared there.

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He started ranting about Do-hyun getting hurt after experiencing a heartbreak but the smell of soup made his mood better. Daddy Oh saw him and Ferry was puzzled to have the man recognizing him, and Daddy Oh started smacking his head because he thought that Ferry was cute. HAHAHAHA! Poor Ferry kept switching between being amused and annoyed at Daddy Oh, while the latter was so happy to see Ferry with his drinking habit and the accent. He offered to give him some drinks and Ferry accepted it with open arms, of course! Daddy Oh told Ferry to treat him as his older brother and Ferry called him brother in Jeolla-do dialect. Ri-jin and Ri-on could only stand there horrified, seeing that Ferry was in front of them.

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Daddy Oh told Ri-on to fetch his special beer and Ferry continued to feed him with flattering words, including praises for Ri-jin. Ferry mentioned how Ri-jin’s beautiful heart touched his but he managed to deflect the suspicion of Daddy Oh, who thought that he was dating Ri-jin. Heeeeee! The special beer was brought to them and Ferry was super excited to have his drink…but he experienced the telling headache before he could even get the cup to touch his lips. He tried to bring it closer but passed out before he could have the taste of the liquor. Ri-jin and Ri-on seized the chance to carry the unconscious body of Do-hyun away and sent him to Ri-on’s bedroom. They left him there but he opened his eyes right after they left the room.

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Ri-jin found it strange that the alters suddenly came out one after another and Ri-on was a bit worried about it, but Ri-jin thought that it must had been difficult for Do-hyun for him to lose control over his consciousness. Ri-on then went back to his room but found it empty while Ri-jin retreated to her room to find someone reading a book. It’s Yo-sub! He was wearing Ri-on’s glasses and sweater, and greeted Ri-jin with a smile. He thought that Ri-on’s novel was sloppily written, to the point of hurting his soul. Yo-sub suddenly expressed his wish to write beautiful poems if he was given more time, but time was not on his side. Ri-jin asked him a question: why his name was Yo-sub?

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Do-hyun was in high school when Yo-sub first attempted suicide and the fact that a top student tried to kill himself sent the whole school into frenzy. It was his Christian name (Yo-sub from Joseph?), and his twin sister Yo-na (Jonah) was the complete opposite of him: she wanted to live. Yo-sub assured Ri-jin that Do-hyun had no intention of killing anymore, so he might disappear one day. Since he was afraid he won’t have the chance for a farewell, he wanted to say goodbye in advance..and kissed Ri-jin’s cheek. AWWWW this kid! Did he hold a crush towards Ri-jin all this while?

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Ri-on interrupted them and Yo-sub was flustered there, before Ri-on threw him on the floor thinking that he was Ferry. Ri-jin told him that it was Yo-sub, but the one who stood in front of them was no longer Yo-sub. Yo-na’s here, guys! She was so elated to see her Ri-on oppa (but not so much for Ri-jin) and launched herself onto Ri-on, hunting for his lips while Ri-jin was laughing at them. No wonder Ri-on was so traumatized! Kekekeke.

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A new problem occured with Yo-na’s appearance: where would she sleep for the night? Ri-jin couldn’t possibly sleep with her (because that’s Do-hyun’s body) and Ri-on refused to let her enter his room (since she’s Yo-na), and Yo-na cursed when she was frustrated at the two of them. Pwahahaha! Ri-on wanted to leave her in the living room but it was a no-no, because Ri-jin knew that she would wake up the entire house instead of sleeping. Ri-on made the decision to use a decisive method: rock, paper, scissors! Yo-na witnessed the ‘duel’ expectantly and Ri-jin lost. Yo-na warned Ri-on after seeing how excited he was to win and Ri-on stopped celebrating his victory.

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Yo-na ended up sharing a room with Ri-jin and despite their constant name-calling, she helped Ri-jin to put on a hair serum before they went to bed. Although she tried to escape and go to Ri-on’s room, Ri-jin managed to stop her and they settled down with this arrangement: Ri-jin on the bed and Yo-na on the floor. Ri-jin decided to tie Yo-na’s hand to her own with a rope so that she won’t be able to go out of the room and they fell asleep.

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They were still fast asleep but Yo-na got excited to dream about Ri-on and accidentally pulled the rope, sending Ri-jin to tumble down from her bed. She didn’t even stir, not even a bit, and the dream might be the reason why she was sleeping peacefully: it was a dream of Do-hyun and her when they were young, playing together before lying on the grass, just like how they were at that moment. Yo-na smiled in her sleep, but Do-hyun was here to take back his body.

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He was initially surprised to find Ri-jin in front of his eyes, and he was tied to her while wearing a bunny pajamas. He decided to continue staring at the sleeping Ri-jin before she stirred awake, and Ri-jin was aware that he had returned.

Do-hyun: When I think about it, the phrase I always use and hear in my life is the name Cha Do-hyun. Although we were apart after those days, it felt that as if our fate didn’t end back then, and we stayed connected through the name Cha Do-hyun. I thought that it would be painful to keep you by my side and it would be a torture for you to watch me, so I had to send you away. Even without you by my side, it was still painful. So…don’t go away. Stay with me.

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The two of them were just getting into their emotions when the light was turned on by Ri-on, and Do-hyun scrambled to hide his face. Ri-on was getting suspicious of them and Do-hyun tried to distract Ri-on by calling him oppa like Yo-na did, except that his voice came out a little too hoarse. Muahahaha! Ri-jin stared at him alarmed, while Ri-on found it even more suspicious. Do-hyun decided that it’s best for him to leave but still keeping his (terrible) Yo-na act. He excused himself with the bunny pajamas on, and Ri-on knew that it wasn’t Yo-na. Ri-jin teased her brother, wondering if he was upset to see Yo-na gone for the time being.

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Do-hyun found it funny that he had to put such an act and laughed at himself, while Ri-jin replayed what Do-hyun said to her earlier. So..it’s official that they’re back together, right? RIGHT?!

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It seemed to be a regular day for everyone but the shareholders of Seungjin had a surprise in store: Do-hyun made his comeback to the office not as a regular staff, but as the person responsible to preside the shareholders meeting. That didn’t bode well for Ki-joon, but Alex sent something that made his mood better: a key to a public (sauna) storage. Do-hyun went to meet Chairman Seo and he’s determined to use his own ways to go all the way to the top of Seungjin. Although it was a warning for her Chairman Seo seemed to be happy to see Do-hyun like that.

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Young-pyo had decided to tell Ki-joon about the truth behind Do-hyun’s name: there was another child who disappeared from Seungjin mansion after the fire, and the present Do-hyun lived using the missing child’s identity as a fake Do-hyun. It was possible for Seungjin to be able to do so, because they had all the power. Ki-joon also learned that Ri-jin was the original Cha Do-hyun.

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Do-hyun didn’t expect to have a guest in the form of Ri-jin in his office, but she was not there as a mere visitor: Ri-jin introduced herself as his new secretary and personal doctor, and Secretary Ahn had already processed her employment. Yeay for a shipper secretary like Cupid Ahn! Do-hyun thought that he didn’t need a personal doctor, plus they ended up breaking the first clause in their previous contract, which was not to fall in love with each other. Ahhh Do-hyun, playing hard to get, huh? Ri-jin suggested that they draw a new clause together: no matter what happens in the future, both parties have to stay with each other. Sounds good! It’s time for them to reset everything and start anew!

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Do-hyun expected Ri-jin to run into his arms but Ri-jin was the one playing hard to get now, so Do-hyun grabbed her hand and pulled her into his arms. They looked like the happiest couple, laughing and looking only at each other.

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[END of Episode 18]

Yessssssssss~! Yeay for that ending, and yeay for everything in this episode! The fun is back and I’m not complaining at all! I think I’ve had enough of the angst and the (needed) separation of our OTP, and they’re back together! Woohoo!

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Although Se-gi’s appearance might feel repetitive to some viewers, I think it’s a wise move to bring him back into the story-telling session, which won’t be complete without the main actor during the fire, Se-gi. We got the confirmation that he was the one who started the fire, and Chairman Seo didn’t imagine it. One can ask why she didn’t try to stop the boy from burning down the house, but she seemed transfixed and too astonished to do anything before the fire broke out and went to the main house. Se-gi’s choice wasn’t the best either; just like Ri-jin said in the episode, she could end up dying because of the fire, although he meant to save her. But then, what could an angry 7-year old child thought of, especially under such desperation experienced by Se-gi? Definitely not the most rational decision in his life.

We also got to see how Jun-pyo got hurt in the fire, and it showed that he still had a small amount of humanity and sympathy for little Ri-jin. That didn’t mean that what he did towards the girl earlier was justifiable, but at that moment, he proved that deep down in his heart, he was still a human being. It was probably karma for him to be hurt while trying to save the child he hated the most in the world, but I think he realized how much Ri-jin meant to his son, for Do-hyun to burn down the house for the sake of saving Ri-jin. Perhaps, Do-hyun’s earnest plea was the thing that made him went back to the room, but he was a step too late.

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Ri-jin has given the greatest gift to Do-hyun (after her love, of course) by giving him the consent to use her original name, Cha Do-hyun. It’s probably hard for her to imagine herself using the name of her man, and she has come to associate the name with the one and only Do-hyun in her life. Thus, declaration was bittersweet, in the sense that she’s letting go of her past and at the same time, relieving Do-hyun from the guilt he carried in his heart all this while. Just like how Do-hyun blamed himself for causing Ri-jin to be abused, Ri-jin started to blame herself for Do-hyun’s illness. Luckily, Do-hyun didn’t wait for too long to see that Ri-jin didn’t hold him accountable for what happened in the past, as much as he thought that Ri-jin wasn’t responsible to cause his DID.

One of the drama’s messages is to show how important family is to us as human beings. Ri-jin received so much love and support for her to be able to overcome her past, while Do-hyun had to deal with it by himself. Knowing that Nana was there all along was another reminder that the burden was too much for the small kid to handle, and had to live his life being cautious while chugging any painful memories into another him, that is his alter. Although Se-gi said that Nana had stayed dormant since Do-hyun was 7, I am curious about something: at what point did Do-hyun snap out of being Nana? Perhaps, losing his memory reset everything he has known in his life, and he just believed that he was Do-hyun. Poor boy. At least he already know the truth!

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Ri-on is no doubt the most loyal supporter of Ri-jin, and I am so happy that he’s not the typical second lead in this drama. It’s true that he showed signs of crushing on Ri-jin, but he probably made his decision to stay as her brother forever. I think he couldn’t imagine his life without Ri-jin as his little sister, and she already has someone in her heart since 21 years ago. Just like the supportive brother he is in the beginning, he continues to be the dream brother (most of the time) and even extend his compassion to Do-hyun. I can’t wait for them to actually become family, because Ri-on will surely use his power as the older brother-in-law. Hehehe!

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The alters’ appearance was one of the best moments in this episode, because they have the power to bring in the laughter with their antics. Oh, how I miss Se-gi’s childish tantrums, Ferry’s short appearance, Yo-sub’s presence, and Yo-na’s squeal! I pity Ferry the most this time, because he spent too much time ranting and then getting smacked by Daddy Oh, causing him to miss the chance to have a good drink. That thirst for alcohol was real and Do-hyun should start drinking a bit to help satiate Ferry’s drinking capacity (or something like that).

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Yo-sub’s words about farewell and saying goodbye made me sad for the alters, because they might have realized that they would be gone soon. At least my sweetheart Yo-sub looked so calm, and it was so sweet when he kissed Ri-jin with his teary eyes. Awwwwwh my heart! I bet he had a crush on her ever since she stopped his suicide attempt, and he’s really warming up to Ri-jin. Even Yo-na didn’t seem to be as wild as she usually do (except in front of Ri-on, of course) and she treated Ri-jin like her own older sister. Ahhh saying goodbye to the alters will be difficult for me to do…

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8Still, Do-hyun cosplaying as Yo-na got to be the funniest thing he have ever done, and he himself felt so silly after acting all cheeky and cute in front of Ri-on. Why didn’t he come clean to Ri-on about his return? LOL!

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Do-hyun wearing Yo-na’s bunny pajamas and driving Se-gi’s car, trying to act cute but ended up looking more like Ferry. Hahaha!

Seungjin’s power struggle will likely take place in episode 19, seeing how Ki-joon is getting nearer towards finding out Do-hyun’s secret. I doubt he will learn about Do-hyun’s DID from Alex, because Do-hyun’s side might have finished their negotiation with Alex. I hope that whatever Ki-joon’s going to find through the key, it was just a trick by Do-hyun and Co. If not, that Alex guy deserves to have his nose poked for a few times more.

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Yeah, let’s just leave our Beauty and her Prince without disturbing them forever, okay? And Ki-joon..you can go back and try to woo Chae-yeon again if you like, instead of spending your precious time digging other people’s secrets. If not, I’ll pray for Yo-na to hunt you in your dreams, forever.

 *twirls around*

61 thoughts on “Kill Me, Heal Me – Episode 18

  1. Now I can rest in peace. Yes, there’s still Ki Joon and whatever secret in Alex’s posession, but damn it! I’ll enjoy the happy right now! My beautiful OTP is back! And Yo Na has never failed to be her awesome self. I will be very very sad when she no longer comes out. I am sure, deep down, Ri On feels the same. He’s just in denial, ha!

    As usual, thank you for the recap!!!

  2. Arigato @muchadoboutlove for the recap! You’re a life savior. I watched it raw a while ago because eng sub is not working at viki. I’m very happy that i was able to keep up with the story bec. of you. Keep up the good work. I really appreciate your hard work.

    1. P.S.
      I went back to read your insights, and this really caught my attention. ..

      “And Ki-joon..you can go back and try to woo Chae-yeon again if you like, instead of spending your precious time digging other people’s secrets. If not, I’ll pray for Yo-na to hunt you in your dreams, forever.

      twirls around

      …now I can’t seem to function well here at work coz all I do is imagine Yo-Na hunting Ki-joon while doing a ballerina dance..uhmn you know, twirling nonstop while wearing her pink ballerina clothes with a bow on her head. LOL oh man KMHM is unforgettable

  3. I’m just so happy right now. 🙂 I’ll think later, but I gotta say they did a good job transitioning from the seriousness that dominated the past three episodes into a mixture of genres again.

    Thank you for recapping, @mimi!!

  4. Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *. It was about time. Gosh!!!!! Okay, can Alex be thrown into that basement, maybe Chae Yeon should join him too… And ki-joon? I hope he falls down the stairs and break his neck/legs/arms on his way to retrieve those hidden info /documents. (Okay, seriously…I am definitely not mean). But I feel Ri-jin and Do Hyun both need separate therapy now to heal their wounds. All in all, glad to see my couple back together again. Happy ending all the way.

  5. And yeah, when all other personalities goes, can Yo-na stay behind 😦 ? I don’t really want to part with her. I can work with D.I.D with just two personalities (Yo-na and Do Hyun). C’mon writer-nim, WOW me 😉

  6. Sobs..at last the writer gives us rainbow. Yay so happy to see Se Gi again! Perry Park, Yosoeb and ahaha our Yona! Now I can continue watch the episode with ease. Huu for now..let’s hope for a great happy ending!
    I’ve been dealing with my weak heart since last week 😥

  7. About healing Do Hyun’s scar, Ri Jin actually said that in ep 11. She said that she realized that he had the most painful memories so she had to care for him. This drama is just awesome. The scene where Do Hyun comes back and is sitting in the car with Ri Jin was the best. This episode made me want to cry. And that was w/o subtitles. Then that cute ending with our happy OTP, GAHHH! This show is too awesome. Does it have to end? T_T. I’ve been mourning since last week.

    Also, Your recaps are always super fast but this one came like lightening! Makes me wonder why other recaps, that shall not be named, don’t get theirs out as quickly. Muchas gracias!

  8. OMG!!!i’m dying of laughing…hahaha…this time the writer-nim know how to heal our heart..seriously watching this episode without subtitle make me laughing hard,i don’t know how my reaction after watching again with subtitle…tq @mimi for fast recaps..love you sooo much!!! 🙂

  9. The cute is backkkkkkkkkkk! I’m on top of the world again! It’s all sunshine and rainbow all over again! cue happy dance The last 3 episodes were painful, but the payoff is sweet. I’m glad that our OTP doesn’t dwell in the pain separately anymore and choose to weather the storm together~

    I’m happy we get to be entertained by the other alters before their integration. It’s such a relief to see Yona, and her persistent PDA over Rion. Not to mention, Yosubie who turns out to have a tiny crush on Rijin. And even Perry Park, Jisung’s favorite alter, who could’ve been Papa Oh’s drinking buddy! I find it odd that Segi mentioned to Rijin that Nana is a dormant alter like him, but not X, for that reason I think X mustn’t been a dormant alter, but an alter later use to join all the other alters together. I’m breaking my tradition of mentioning X last because I want to get it over and done with. As much as I’m intrigued by him, I’m tired of speculating his appearance and his role. With 2 more episodes on our hand, I don’t think he’d play much of a role because most of them have been filled by Segi and Dohyun. Is it possible that the writer developed Segi’s role more and push X into a corner because of how well-received Segi is?

    I’m pleased to be proven wrong of some theories…
    1. The fire was not premeditated by the corrupt adults in Seungjin, thankfully. They’re still the heartless dogs who fight over power and status, but at least they’re not murderer, I can’t say for sure about Min Seyeon and Chairman Cha’s car accident, but I hope for Dohyun and Rijin’s sake, it was really an accident. I think they’ve been through too much to face another dark revelation.
    2. Segi did start the fire with the intention to save, not to end Rijin’s sufferings. I still find issues with the fire, and Segi’s blatant haughtiness that he saved Rijin, but I’m glad that he acknowledged to Rijin that it could have killed her, and that’s the one thing that bothered me when I found out Segi started the fire. Granted, the fire also showed us the human side of Junpyo.
    It turns out the one who has a chance of redemption is Cha Junpyo, the child abuser. He went back to save Dohyun (Rijin) and risked his life in the process, and we get a glimmer of his past self that Dohyun (Junyoung) loved. I’m not excusing him of all the awful things he had done, but I’m willing to give him a chance as a father who could have been the world to Dohyun (Junyoung). If the writer decides to let him wake up from his coma, I hope he begs for forgiveness from Rijin and makes it up to her by being the best father-in-law in the world.

    I love how Dohyun has never been able to hide his feelings from Rijin, and quick to confess everything to her. He was quick to confess his DID, quick to confirm he was lucid when he kissed her in front of the snowman, quick to confess he was falling for her and wanted to be by her side, and now quick to confess it was hard being apart from her. I think Dohyun’s character is very well thought out and different from most k-drama male leads we’ve seen, he’s truly a gem and bring out by Jisung, he’s truly an outstanding guy.

    I have to say Rijin is equally as impressive as Dohyun. I know she’s a strong girl, but her weepy self in Ep.17 shook my faith in her, but she’s quick to pull herself together and willing to take Segi’s hands despite all the past coming back to her. I was really touched when Rijin gifted the name to Dohyun, and I thought she said it best, even Dohyun couldn’t say anything back: “With that face, that gaze, I want you to be Cha Dohyun.” I take back what I said about the name being cursed. It’s been like a bridge connecting them together, and with Dohyun associating the name to himself for 21 years, it felt like Dohyun (Rijin) has never left him.

    And I have to mention this last because it will stay with me for a long, long time:
    “Do-hyun: When I think about it, the phrase I always use and hear in my life is the name Cha Do-hyun. Although we were apart after those days, it felt that as if our fate didn’t end back then, and we stayed connected through the name Cha Do-hyun. I thought that it would be painful to keep you by my side and it would be a torture for you to watch me, so I had to send you away. Even without you by my side, it was still painful. So…don’t go away. Stay with me.”

    Dohyun ah! You have no idea how painful it was for us, the viewers too. We wept and cried with you, our eyes were swollen, and our hearts ached for you. It’s as painful for Rijin as it was for you to be apart. Stay together and fulfill your promise. Do it together, facing all the bad stuff and making new memories to counter the old ones. We’re here rooting for you.
    I tried hard not to think of it, but we only have 2 episodes left! cries again

    1. Somehow I forgot to put a space between each paragraph of my comments, I hope it isn’t too much of an eyesore, sorry~

      I forgot to mention how instantaneously Dohyun came out when Rijin called out to him, previously on the rooftop with Yosub, it took her a few shrieking to get Dohyun’s consciousness, but I’m happy with the new improvement that only a call from Rijin, Dohyun can instantly come back at will.

  10. Thanks a lot bec for the recap you are a star. Finally my heart rejoice cos the two a now back together yeeeeeeaaayyy

  11. @mimi After reading your extended comment, I know I have to watch this episode soon! Alas, I have to go to work and watch it tonight instead. cries I can’t wait to watch the scene where Dohyun cosplay Yona. Gah!

  12. This episode was pure love. I was surprised by it. The end scene with our OTP, I really only expected something like that in the last episode. But this is it, right? That’s it, no more separation, no nothing? I mean what more can they possibly go through!? Now it’s just that damn key…

    Se Gi protecting Ri Jin was everything, Yo Na caring for Ri Jin was everything, Do Hyun and Ri Jin talking and getting back together was EVERYTHING!

    And of course, the last secret as to why Do Hyun came in possession of the name. It wasn’t some big family conspiracy of stolen identity. It was an effect of “Joon Young’s” broken heart. I thought that was so poignant and so fitting in a way.

    Of the father I really don’t what to think. What he did to little Ri Jin is inexcusable but at the same time we saw that he was not a complete insane inhumane monster. It’ll be interesting to see what sort of closure his character gets. Will he just slip quietly away in his coma?

    And yeah, I totally put my fist up in the air when I saw Do Hyun walking all confident into the boardroom! That’s the puppy I want to see!

    1. “Se Gi protecting Ri Jin was everything, Yo Na caring for Ri Jin was everything, Do Hyun and Ri Jin talking and getting back together was EVERYTHING!”

      Rion told Rijin, from his point of view as an author, that the alters were probably trying to reunite Rijin and Dohyun together (by showing up in front of her in turns) since the host wouldn’t have done it himself otherwise. And I went “aww…they wuve him”

  13. oh then mommy Oh started a fire somewhere else as distraction in order to save RiJin and SeGi also set fire on the basement in order to save RiJin…nice timing?

  14. Thank you so much for your speedy recaps! Always joy to read them!
    I’m on the seventh heaven after watching this episode, hope they give us even more cute in the final ❤
    Praying that Do Hyun won’t go back to America for treatment (no time slips and no farewell in the airport please)

  15. Thank you for your hard work. This couple is so sweet. Your recaps help so much not only with the language barrier but the culture (first world country with Confucius values…mine is Puritan that no one I know really follows but I still need recaps to understand kdramas haha) . Makes watching dramas so much more enjoyable.The angst episodes were hard but necessary I think because we had to find out and it was not going to be pretty. But this episode made a healthy transition (ha with all the DID personalities that sounds crazy but hey! its a kdrama) to recovery with trust and love for both of them….and us! Again thank you so much.

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