Kill Me, Heal Me – Episode 12

The hour felt so short when I was watching this episode. I guess that’s the disadvantage of following dramas while they are airing: you only get to watch two hours per week and the rest of the time is spent moping around, waiting for new week, new episodes, and new twists to come. I am happy to report that the wait is over, and Do-hyun is back with us! There were so much emotions packed into the hour but it felt so good..and I’m left here, craving for more. Hum.

[Episode 12] – (already?)


Seeing how he’s calling his father with respect, the one who woke up this time was indeed Do-hyun, but he was so freaked out to find himself beside his unconscious father. Jun-pyo’s fingers moved slightly, as if he was tapping his fingers..and it resembled what Se-gi usually did. Oooh. It brought back another memory of the past for Do-hyun, his father included this time.

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Little Do-hyun was playing a piano but the boy grew nervous when he made his mistake, and we got to see why: Jun-pyo was there watching him and grabbed little Do-hyun’s collar although the kid was begging for him to be forgiven for his mistake. Adult Do-hyun put his hand over his head in front of his father as little Do-hyun in his memory was thrown into the basement. Jun-pyo reminded his son that he should do well so that no one would be hurt and lifted his arm to hit the boy. Little Do-hyun tried to shield himself at first but upon seeing another child beside him in the basement, he went to put his hand over the child, protecting her (or him?) from his father’s abuse.

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The memory stopped there and Do-hyun realized that he was still in the ward, but he was curious about the child who suddenly appeared beside him in the scene. He was going to check on his father when Se-gi’s voice greeted him from inside, offering his advice to Do-hyun: how about dealing with his past in one strike, especially the people who turned him into the monster he was now? Do-hyun recalled Se-gi’s challenge for him to stop him and he should do nothing if he couldn’t do so, but Do-hyun won’t give up this time. He tried to fight the headache and stayed awake but suddenly, the guards barged into the room, dragging Do-hyun away from his father.

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Ri-jin was still in the middle of her confrontation with Ri-on, with her demanding to know the relationship between his documents related to Do-hyun and his warning before. Meanwhile, Do-hyun was brought to his knees in front of Chairman Seo, who slapped him for playing with his father’s life. She decided to ignore the matter today..thinking that it’s a price for Do-hyun, living his life like a dog guarding his owner’s empty house, but she warned him not to get near his father again. Do-hyun apologized, admitting that he was only trying to pay his respects his father, although he was aware that his grandma didn’t like to see him getting close to his parents and he owed his life thanks to his father. The gentle Do-hyun in front of her was totally different from the guy who raised his voice in front of her back then, and Chairman Seo noticed it.


The chairman told Do-hyun to disappear from her sight for the day but Do-hyun wanted to ask a question: was he abused by his father when he was young? Alas, the question didn’t get asked; instead, Do-hyun wondered if there was another child living inside the house aside from him when he was young.

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Ri-on only told Ri-jin that Do-hyun’s information he gathered was his materials for his next mystery novel centering around a chaebol family, but Ri-jin wasn’t convinced with his explanation, thinking that he might be planning to write a novel about Do-hyun’s multiple personalities. Ri-on chided her for thinking that he would be using someone else’s private matter to rack in money and hid the photo of President Min Seo-yeon in his pocket. He tried to escape but Ri-jin wasn’t not done yet; then, why did he tell her not to bring up Do-hyun or Seungjin in front of their parents? Ri-on had the upper hand this time, because he thought that she should her patient’s details as privacy..and she wasn’t really going to tell their parents that she had been staying with a young rich man instead of a rich grandpa all this while, was she? Ri-on managed to escape from Ri-jin when Daddy Oh made her take a look at Mama Ji, who had accidentally cut her finger.

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Back to the Seungjin mansion, Chairman Seo insisted that there was no other child except for Do-hyun living there back then, but Do-hyun wasn’t going to let it go just like that. By the way, the portrait was creepy! Do-hyun was going to ask Madam Shin about it, but he found out that Se-gi had sent his mother overseas. At the same time, Ri-on managed to sneak out and put the photo of President Min into the fire.

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Do-hyun took a cab home (because his red car was at the nursing home and his white car was at Chae-yeon’s house) and he was about to step out after paying the taxi fare when the driver turned around to face him…and it was his father. Damn, that was creepy! Do-hyun was shocked and he had a hard time trying to open the door and jumped out onto the ground, before throwing up. The taxi driver probably thought that he was just drunk and left Do-hyun sitting on the ground in front of his house, trying to catch his breath. He realized that he was really abused by his father back then ㅠㅠ

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The house was dark when Do-hyun went inside and he went around searching for Ri-jin; however, she was nowhere to be found inside the house. He heard someone punching in the pass code to enter the house and ran downstairs, but it was Secretary Ahn, who was so happy to see that Do-hyun had returned. Do-hyun was relieved when he found out that Ri-jin was on her way there after resolving the misunderstanding with her family, because he thought that she was in trouble. AWWWWW. He then recalled Se-gi’s warning and started to worry about Chae-yeon.

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The lady who went to the dress fitting session was now crying in front of her mother, thinking that she should break off the engagement with Ki-joon. Chae-yeon was disappointed when her mother seemed to be against her decision and she jumped out of her bed, taking her phone with her when Do-hyun called her. Ki-joon thought that it was just Chae-yeon experiencing marriage blues but his mother thought that there was something and scolded her son for not accompanying Chaeyeon earlier.

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Chae-yeon played it cool when she talked with Do-hyun over the phone, wondering why he was always asking after her condition as if he’s her personal doctor. She informed him that everything was fine and asked why he kept calling her; was he going to meet her late at night and say ridiculous things like he did few nights before? Do-hyun could only apologize to Chae-yeon, telling her that he wasn’t being sincere at that time and she should think as getting bitten by a mad dog instead of getting affected over his words. She only grew more confused at Do-hyun’s sudden change and rushed out..


It was the first time for Do-hyun to have his body taken over by his alter for that long (a few days) and he couldn’t even start to imagine what Se-gi had done during the time he was absent. Secretary Ahn consoled him, saying that he should be stronger from now on, so that both his consciousness and his precious person won’t be taken away from him. Awwwww yeay for Cupid Ahn! The secretary promised to find out what happened between Se-gi and Chairman Seo, but Do-hyun asked for him to find out if there was another child around his age who was there at Seungjin mansion prior to the fire incident.

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The Oh Family had given their consent for Ri-jin to return to her position as the personal doctor and Ri-on initially complained that Ri-jin shouldn’t give him trouble sending her there, but retracted his words when Daddy Oh offered to give Ri-jin a ride. Daddy Oh suddenly though of Do-hyun (“Ferry? Or was it Henry?”) and wondered why he didn’t visit them even once after all his promises and the twins snatched his phone when he tried to call him. Mama Ji thought of the side dishes she gave to Do-hyun and when Ri-jin tried to tell her that Do-hyun hadn’t finished eating them yet, Ri-on stepped on her foot to prevent his sister from blowing her cover. He dragged her away, leaving their parents wondering why their kids were so jumpy that night.

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Ri-on complained about him acting like a boyfriend to Ri-jin, driving her here and there, Ri-jin didn’t have anything to say except for “Sorry” and ” I love you”. He told her to bring Do-hyun home, since he realized how hard it was for Ri-jin to become Do-hyun’s only friend and family by herself. He even offered to be Do-hyun’s friend and family in Ri-jin’s stead, if she ever felt it difficult to bear with. He’s indeed an ideal brother! (Sorry for brother-zoning you, Orion!) Ri-on then asked Ri-jin about the person he met when he fetched Ri-jin from Do-hyun’s house and thought that Se-gi seemed to be really dangerous. Ri-jin denied that, explaining how innocent and cute Se-gi was deep down his heart. But then, she warned his brother that there’s another alter he should be careful with and we all know: Yo-na would probably be even more dangerous when she’s around Ri-on, but Ri-jin not telling Ri-on. Heeeeeeeee I want them to meet once, just to see how it will turn out to be!

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Do-hyun sent Secretary Ahn out and the latter realized that Do-hyun was waiting for Ri-jin when Do-hyun kept looking at his watch. Of course! A car came from the other side and it turned out to be Chae-yeon, who jumped straight into the flustered Do-hyun’s arms. Whoops! Ri-jin and Ri-on arrived at the scene to witness the melodrama that was about to unveil in front of them, but Ri-jin thought that it was Se-gi, trying to mess with Do-hyun’s life again. She bid Ri-on goodbye and said that she’s going for the shooting of Love and War and jumped out of the car…

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…before screeching out loud at the trash Do-hyun. She bulldozed her way in between Chae-yeon and Do-hyun, apologizing to Chae-yeon because of Do-hyun. She explained that they fought on the night Se-gi visited Chae-yeon and he was drunk, so she shouldn’t think too much of whatever he said to her on that night. Ri-jin pulled Do-hyun’s ear, dragging him with her when she bowed at Chae-yeon and into the house. Ri-on watched them from afar, thinking that the situation between Ri-jin and Do-hyun had not reached the melodrama level yet. Ummmm you don’t really know anything, Ri-on!

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Ri-jin started to scold Do-hyun (still in his Se-gi ‘do) like she always did as soon as they’re inside, reminding him of the promise to maintain Do-hyun’s reputation. She warned him that he would be in minus if he continued to act like that, and Do-hyun just flashed his signature puppy smile at her. Ri-jin thought that he was playing around with her, smiling like Do-hyun after acting as Do-hyun these few days (“A performance that is worth getting the Daesang!” That’s for you, Ji Sung!). Do-hyun was about to laugh and Ri-jin approved that ‘Se-gi’ in front of her really resembled Do-hyun! She went “It feels like you’re Mr. Cha, it seems like you’re Mr. Cha but not..”


..and he reached for her hand, admitting that he’s the real Mr. Cha, and he had returned. She just stood there with tears welling in her eyes as Do-hyun playfully asked Ri-jin if she regretted it now that he’s returned.

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You fool, you didn’t even know what she went through, Do-hyun! Ri-jin smacked him (good girl!) and cried out loud, asking why he only returned now. She really thought that he won’t come back forever and told him how worried Secretary Ahn and her were. Ri-jin complained between her tears: how Se-gi threatened to kill Do-hyun every single day; how Do-hyun appeared in her dreams and bid his goodbye; how bad she felt thinking that he disappeared because of her. Ackkkkkk this girl needs a hug, and Do-hyun gave her one! YESSSSSSS! Ri-jin threatened that he would be dead if he was Se-gi posing as Do-hyun, and Do-hyun had his own way of proving that he’s the real Do-hyun:



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The next morning, Ri-jin started the day reporting every single thing (“just like how it was stated in the contract that Do-hyun loved” Heh) that happened during the time Se-gi was there. He was actually curious about what happened between Se-gi and Chae-yeon, but Ri-jin thought that nothing actually happened since she couldn’t imagine Se-gi doing anything, because she believed him. Do-hyun remarked that she really trusted Se-gi and he didn’t even deny that he was jealous. Eyyy~! Ri-jin thought that they should get ready for work, but there’s something Do-hyun was curious about since the night before…

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..and it was no other than the wheel of fortune. Pffffttt. Ri-jin told him about the choice she had to made and Do-hyun was on cloud nine when he found out that the outcome turned to be on his side. But then, Se-gi had declared that it was void, and Do-hyun started to question why Ri-jin agreed to Se-gi so easily. LOL it’s not hard to guess where Se-gi got his pettiness inside him! Ri-jin made a pact with Se-gi and Do-hyun was amazed that the stubborn Se-gi adhered to his promise and helped to carry out Do-hyun’s tasks at the office without much trouble. Thus, Ri-jin thought that Do-hyun should do the same too.

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Ri-jin was stunned to see Do-hyun getting ready in his ordinary, ill-fitted suit for work (where have those perfect suits gone to?) and persuaded him to change into something that was more like Se-gi, since his sudden ‘good student’ look after walking like a fashion model in the last two days would make people suspicious of him. He opted for the ‘jacket and turtleneck look’ and Ri-jin tried to bring his hair up just a bit, but Do-hyun won’t let her touch his hair. Kekekekeke his hair is really his joy and pride, huh? He wasn’t going to copy that great Shin Se-gi and Ri-jin told him to bring his hair down since the weather was cold. I’m slowly dying of laughter because of these two!

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They arrived at the company and Do-hyun noticed that the female staff were staring at him. Ri-jin advised him to just smile and wave, because he’s opening a new for himself! He just lifted his hand and the staff went crazy over it. HAHAHAHA! He was genuinely flustered at the attention and Ri-jin just said that it was a prove of his charms and he should be more confident about it. LOL the staff were like fangirls around him!

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Do-hyun and Ri-jin were waiting for the elevator when Ki-joon’s secretary greeted them, dressed to the nines to work that day. He’s so copying Se-gi but he’s like going for a vampire look there! HAHAHA! He kept winking at Ri-jin and complimented Do-hyun for his look of the day, bragging that only fellow fashion people could understand each other. The secretary didn’t even wait for Do-hyun and took the elevator by himself, just like Se-gi. Pfffft he kinda looked like a Dracula too! Ri-jin told Do-hyun that he should continue to live with his charms, seeing how he could affect the people around him.

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They encountered J.I. next and Do-hyun just went “OMG!” when he got to know that Se-gi made the idol a leading man in a movie even when he couldn’t act at all. J.I. greeted Do-hyun, this time looking up at the Vice President who had inspired him to start from the bottom, so he had decided to give up the leading role. But before that, he wanted to see Do-hyun saying the line, “Okay, do iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit~!” like Se-gi did, and clueless Do-hyun had to do it in front of the other staff at J.I.’s insistence. Hehehe he’s truly enjoying it!

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Do-hyun attended a meeting with Ki-joon and the other staff, but Ki-joon suddenly brought up the matter about J.I. praising Do-hyun for his success to persuade the idol. Do-hyun was initially stunned but his lips curled into a smile, and Do-hyun noticed that. After the meeting ended, he went to Secretary Ahn, thinking that Se-gi was quite capable too. His secretary thought that it was because Se-gi had Do-hyun backing his up, and the J.I. issue felt like a joint work of Se-gi and Do-hyun; Se-gi as the person who did the job with Do-hyun’s trust to leave his world behind in Se-gi’s hands. It’s not different from someone having faith in himself, because Se-gi would eventually become Do-hyun. He’s very optimistic, and he didn’t forget to give the credit to Ri-jin too! Ahhhh who doesn’t love Cupid Ahn?!

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Their conversation was interupted by Ki-joon, who wanted to see Do-hyun for a while. At the same time, Ri-jin ran into Chae-yeon in the washroom and the latter wanted to have a word with Ri-jin. Ki-joon had abandoned his goody two shoes image, pushing Do-hyun against the wall as he warned Do-hyun not to make people confused with his ever-changing concepts. Do-hyun apologized for it and Ki-joon asked if he’s planning something with his frequent visits to Chae-yeon’s house and Do-hyun’s reply was awesome: Ki-joon must had been so weak and lacking in self cofidence if he thought that his relationship with Chae-yeon would be destroyed easily like that. Do-hyun admitted that he had gotten over Chae-yeon and Ki-joon should stop lashing out his anger at him. Yessssssss that’s how you do it, boy!

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Ki-joon’s mood didn’t get any better at the sight of his secretary copying Se-gi/Do-hyun’s style, but the secretary had something that could lessen his anger. Their investigation on Do-hyun’s life overseas yielded a very interesting result: they found out about a close friend of Do-hyun during his stay in California. The guy, Alex, grew apart from Do-hyun just before they graduated, but Alex also received a huge sum of money around that time. Ki-joon wanted to find the Alex guy and he’s really going to dig up everything about Do-hyun.

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Secretary Ahn had secured the CCTV recording from Seungjin mansion and Do-hyun decided that it would be safer for them go back home. As for Ri-jin, she was still standing in front of Chae-yeon, waiting for Chae-yeon to start talking but she apologized for the matter on the night first. Chae-yeon thought that Ri-jin should realize that she was only being used by Do-hyun, and if she knew what Do-hyun told her on the night they met, then Ri-jin might not be able to stay beside him any longer. Chae-yeon was so confident that Do-hyun only saw Ri-jin as her replacement since he’s not over her yet, but Ri-jin put Chae-yeon in her place: they shouldn’t be having that kind of talk, especially when Chae-yeon was already engaged to Ki-joon. Ri-jin received a call from Do-hyun, telling her to come to his house, and she stepped away.

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Do-hyun and Secretary Ahn watched the recordings from the nights Se-gi went to visit Chairman Seo and Do-hyun couldn’t decide why Se-gi did that. Smartypants Secretary Ahn managed to slip in a voice recorder in Se-gi’s pocket when they went to Seungjin mansion together and from the voice recording, Do-hyun heard about the child that everyone should had saved instead of him. Chairman Seo couldn’t stop thinking about Do-hyun’s different faces and went to meet Dr. Seok at the hospital.

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Dr. Seok was actually elated that a family member of Do-hyun had came to meet him because he had waited for a long time, but Chairman Seo wasn’t there to enjoy her time; she wanted to keep everything short and went there to find out the problem Do-hyun had. Dr. Seok explained that as a result of his painful memories of the past, Do-hyun produced a number of alters for him to deal with the wound. In other words, he’s someone with multiple personalities.

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Secretary Ahn’s investigation only yielded little results so far, because records of the previous staff working at the mansion had been destroyed, as if someone was trying to hide something. Ri-jin arrived at the house and Do-hyun wanted to talk with her privately. He wanted to know the reason she’s hiding about her meeting with Madam Shin, leading to his mother being sent overseas by Se-gi. Ri-jin told him about Madam Shin’s role as a witness to Do-hyun’s abuse and she’s been holding on to Seungjin using that as her weapon. Do-hyun wasn’t told about it not because Ri-jin thought that he was too weak to handle the truth, but the fact that he was abused during his childhood would come out as a shock for him. Do-hyun knew about it, and he’s thinking of finding out more about it; hence, he wanted to be stronger, so that he didn’t have to use Se-gi as his shield anymore.

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Se-gi appeared again in his Do-hyun’s mind, expecting the answer to his offer regarding the past. Do-hyun agreed to find his lost memories and dig the secrets the people hid from him. Se-gi wondered if he’s going to let him do the job, or Do-hyun himself was ready to do it himself? Of course Do-hyun was ready, because he wasn’t thinking of avoiding or running away from the truth anymore. Although Se-gi was doubtful of Do-hyun’s ability to handle the truth, Do-hyun was very confident this time.


Do-hyun: Your memories will be mine soon, and the pain you can handle will become mine too. If you did it, then I will be able to do it too. Because…you’ll become me soon. Do you want me to say it again? Because I..will become you soon.

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Do-hyun also learned about the people who were looking for the missing child, and they were his mother and Ki-joon’s father. Secretary Ahn then received a call from Chairman Seo, summoning Do-hyun to the mansion. Do-hyun wondered if something happened to his father and the thought about his father alone made him weak in the knees. He just slumped there on the floor, trying to gather himself. Ri-jin thought that he was being nervous after the trouble caused by Se-gi but he didn’t tell her anything.

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The first thing Do-hyun asked Chairman Seo about was his father and her grandma thought that Do-hyun had finally recalled what he had done to his father, but Do-hyun actually meant to tell her about his DID. However, before he could explain it, she told him to return to the US, because it would be impossible for Seungjin to deal with someone whose different personalities might jump out at any time. It was heartbreaking to see his own grandmother treating Do-hyun like he’s some kind of monster, urging him to live with his mother there.


Do-hyun: Have you even thought of me as your grandson even once, Chairman? Have you ever considered me, even once, not as Father’s substitute, but as your grandson, your family member, or a human?

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Ri-jin went to the mansion together with Do-hyun and Secretary Ahn, but she ended up helping the housekeeper with the thing she didn’t really like, that was going to the basement to fetch the wine. She still went there alone despite being obviously wary of the place, searching for the wine. She kept looking at one side of the place but decided to ignore the strange feeling she had before she found the wine. She was going to leave the cellar but she saw a little girl drawing on the wall.


Do-hyun expressed his intention to stay in the country, not because of his greed but because of something he had to do. he would leave his position at the company if that’s what his grandma wanted him to do. Apart from getting a proper treatment, Do-hyun was thinking of finding the reason why his heart had shattered into several pieces and what each piece meant to him.


The little kid in front of Ri-jin turned around, and it was actually the younger version of her.


Do-hyun: I will find the lost memories of mine and I will patch together the pieces of my heart. I will see to the end, how the complete picture will turn out to be. I am not Father’s substitute. I am not Seungjin’s guard dog, and I am not a monster. I am just…Cha Do-hyun.

[END of Episode 12]


Is it Wednesday yet?! Because I’m so excited for the next episode! Yeay for Do-hyun’s comeback; bolder and stronger! And that child was indeed Ri-jin! The drama is not going to drag the “Who the child is?” game and I am somehow happy for the revelation in this episode, because we were 90%+ sure that the child was Ri-jin. It’s good for the drama to unveil it, because beating around the bush longer will only make the viewers grow tired. Although there wasn’t any preview for episode 13 yet, it’s normal since they’re already in the middle of live shooting and to think that they’re able to put up such a good episode is truly commendable.

We are now sure that Do-hyun was indeed abused by his father; there’s no doubt about it, and only the writer knows for how long he had to endure the torture before the fire incident. It’s still a mystery how and why little Ri-jin was there, but Do-hyun’s father seemed to be aware of her presence there, and he’s probably using her as his punching bag too. Poor kids, and what a bad father Jun-pyo was! He did talk about his heart being hurt, so maybe he saw Ri-jin as his source of pain, because she was the illegitimate daughter of his wife, President Min Seo-yeon?

I really wish that the drama won’t have the fauxcest issue going on for too long. It can be icky for most of the viewers, and I hope Do-hyun wlill discover it really fast that Ri-jin wasn’t his half-sister. That will be hard to deal with, especially for both Do-hyun and Ri-jin themselves. They’re technically unrelated by blood, but it’s another issue if Ri-jin’s name was included in the family register, or had her birth registered under Min Seo-yeon’s name.


Do-hyun made a bit of progress in this episode, coming into terms with his alter Se-gi, and learning how to accommodate his alters just like they did for him, especially Se-gi. It was, is, and will be hard for him, but Do-hyun’s willingness to fight in the battle shows that he’s ready to see it through to the bitter end, no matter how the outcome will turn out to be. Yeay for the courage, and yeay for his bravery! To think that he rejected Se-gi’s ‘offer’ to face the painful memories in his stead twice showed how much he wanted to recover, and also to find out about everything that happened in the past, locked away in his lost memories. Even when he’s hit with the ugly truth that he was abused by his father, he still held on to his consciousness, not letting it escape from his grip.

Although there are eight episodes left for the story to be tied up nicely, there are, in reality, lots of things that need to be addressed, especially the Seungjin family. The person I am most curious about is the late President Min Seo-yeon, because she’s related to everyone and everything happening in this drama: she was Do-hyun’s legal mother, Ri-jin’s birth mother, Mama Ji’s best friend, Jun-pyo’s wife, and Chairman Seo’s daughter-in-law. She was like the key to what happened to Seungjin back then and she will be the most important person in determining Ri-jin and Do-hyun’s real ties. Since her photos have been brought up by the Oh Family (Mama Ji and Ri-on), my guess is that the family will bring up about Seo-yeon first. How? That we will have to wait for next week.


As much as we have enjoyed the last few episodes with Se-gi’s antics, this episode showed another side of the story, that was from Ri-jin’s point of view. No matter how obedient Se-gi could be in front of her, we often forgot how hard it was for heal to deal with Se-gi while blaming herself, thinking that she was the reason for Do-hyun to disappear and for Se-gi to come out. When she broke down in front of Do-hyun, it was just more than a simple childish wailing; it was her way of expressing her relief, anguish, happiness, and so many emotions at the sight o Do-hyun, after thinking that he might not come back forever. When Do-hyun hugged her (and kissed her on her forehead!), that was a very beautiful scene. He better keep his promise not to be late anymore and not to make Ri-jin cry again! She will be needing your support soon!

With Ri-jin’s discovery of her presence in the basement, she will likely start to ponder about it and ask her family about her past, although it is unknown whether her parents will try to hide the truth…or just spill it to her since she has started to remember bits and pieces about her childhood. Will Do-hyun continue to grow closer to Oh Family through Ri-jin, and what the parents’ reaction will be once they found out that Do-hyun is a part of Seungjin? Lots and lots of questions we have here still, and next week can’t come here faster enough.

Although you’re still mysterious…you’re cute, Orion!


82 thoughts on “Kill Me, Heal Me – Episode 12

  1. My dear cupboard, you are fantastic! yay yay (while shooting ‘like’ arrows) I just love every bit of your recaps ❤

    Oemgee..all secrets will be reveal soon..aww just poor Do Hyun 😥 and Ri Jin too.. I always wonder what will to her if she remember all her childhood memories. argh a week just too long!

  2. Thank you for recaping so fast. Im enjoying ur recap n im glad to find this blog since hard to me to find KMHM recap dday after the show. Other recaper i knew both in english or my language seems prefer HJM first T.T
    I cant believe I would love jisung n hwang jung eum so much like now, same for the show. I hope KMHM wouldnt drop the story to melo level. Im waiting for nana and mr.x. I have a feeling that mr.x would appear after segi dissapear.

    1. The perry park’s dialect is quit addictive to me… 🙂 . So hillarioys to watch jisung in that character.
      Also,I’m just finish watching ep12…chingu..what will be happen to us for this long week bcoz there no preview for us at all !!!!

      1. Maja maja majayo. I love perry too, his expression and dialect was hillarious, cant imagine if he finally meet abeoji, and i’d love to see yo na meet ri on. Kkekkeekke. I dont know chingu, this show was so addcted n i want ep 13 right now. Hoho.

  3. Thanks for the recap!! Reading this now, I realized a watched a non-fully subbed episode so I missed some things.

    I am hoping that this isn’t JS’s “role of a lifetime” but the first of many really really good parts he will get to play. I have watched so many of his dramas where he was good, but this has him at a higher level. This is where the audience can see without a shadow of a doubt that JS has made this series the success it has turned into. Nobody else could have done this with such humor,conviction, energy, warmth and sizzle. How can you pull all of that out in one 60 min ep?
    He’s in a class by himself!

  4. Being a big fan of Ji Sung, this drama made me love him even more😉I also like how comedic elements are weaved in amidst all the tragedy and sad backstory- it strikes a good balance.
    I think by the end of the drama’s run I would miss all the personalities though I know they’re each a part of DoHyun (and I’m glad they are). The concept behind it is really interesting- each persona tells a different story. And each episode leaves me wanting to find out more about what happened in Seungjin Group back then.
    To clarify something, so Ri jin and Do Hyun are unrelated? I got a bit confused watching. They don’t have the same father right. Is it like Ri On and ri jin who are also not blood related?
    As for Ri on, we found out what some of his motivations behind his writing as Omega and investigation on the Cha family were but very much of it is still clouded in mystery. Haha, hope we’ll find out more soon!😊

    1. Me too. Still wondering bout relationship between dohyun and rijin. Is do hyun really cha junpyo’s son? Well im sure enough bout this but why his father so mean to him? Is this bcoz of his mother is mistress and he want to make dohyun to be a perfect man so dohyun’s position can secure enough (like kim tan)? And what about rijin? If her mother really min seoyeon, what about her father? The big chairman? If this true then rijin is do hyun’s aunt. I cant accept. But if not, why big chaiman was so nice to min seo yeon? Or maybe cha junpyo isn’t biological son of big chairman? So thats why chairman seo is very obsessed to make his son to be the heirs, and she hate dohyun to share the same fate like his father,, and rijin is her enemy for sure, since she have a cha bloodline, not like her son. Lol.

      1. To think about it, Do Hyun and Ri jin are probably not related at all. His parents are Mdm Shin and Chairman Cha Jun Pyo. Her parents are min seo yeon and a man she met in the States. Do hyun’s dad most likely had anger management issues, which do hyun became a victim of. The reason why grandma seo doesn’t like do hyun and his mum could be because his mum is her son’s mistress

  5. So I was re-watching the first episode (as you do when you’re in withdrawal) and omg, I just realized something. The fist time Se Gi appears for us is when that guy beats up Do Hyun and he takes revenge. It makes so much more sense now why Se Gi would appear then!! Plus, he was saving that girl from abuse(!!!!) something we now know, he knows a lot about. I just can’t anymore!

    And when he told Ri Jin to “Remember” at their first meeting, I thought he was just telling her to remember the time and date he fell for her, but he might have told her to remember them and their past. Man, that was trolling and foreshadowing at their finest.

  6. Joonsori, mia means the stepfather of the girl he was taking notes to in America, 11 years before he returned to Korea.

  7. The Mysterious Mr. X….. I somehow think that Mr. X will be the combination of all the other 6 personalities (including Cha-gun). Although Cha Do Hyun is a warm and sweet gentleman, he still lacks other emotions, which are all stored in his alters.
    …That’s why I think that Mr.X is the real Cha Do Hyun when all the 6 alters come together as one personality.

  8. Guys, thank you for all the comments! Sorry I couldn’t reply to each of them, but I enjoy reading your insights and theories! 😀

    I hope that I am wrong, but now I’m thinking that Ri-on might be the one abused and the secret missing child, while Ri-jin is just a visiting friend who ended up witnessing the abuse. The fear of basement Ri-jin had was probably an effect of what she saw.

    There are a few reasons why I’m thinking so:
    – The child who played with little Do-hyun and the one little Do-hyun protected from his dad had short hair.

    – The child’s ears were visible.

    Little Ri-jin’s hair seemed to be thick and it won’t be easy to have her hair tucked behind the hair for long…so it had to be a short-haired kid.

    – The hand little Do-hyun held when he refused to let the child go seemed to have belonged to a boy.

    One thing that I’m curious about is how little Ri-jin and little Ri-on were wearing same clothes in the flashbacks.

    (This is random but I can’t get over the gnawing feeling I had after recalling Ri-on’s lines.)

    1. Few reasons why I don’t think it’s Rion:
      1. Segi did not recognize Rion.
      2. Segi offered Seungjin Group to Rijin, not Rion, out of guilt because they did not save ‘that child’.
      3. The words ‘because you are the child of Seungjin family’ struck a cord with Segi, and they were talking about Rijin at the time.

      Rion and Rijin probably wear the same clothing because they were supposed to be twin.

    2. I don’t know… I think it’s still Ri Jin the child. The different child is probably just misdirection, plus in the flashback when Ri On and Ri Jin are little, Ri Jin’s shy attitude and withdrawal correspond to that of an abused child. As does Ri On meanness as an expression of his jealosy to have to share his parents with another child all of a sudden.

      And I don’t think that Ri On being the child would have so much of an impact on the story, emotionally. Like, imagine how Ri Jin and Do Hyun would feel when they find out the truth!? My poor babies!

  9. Thank you so much for the fast recap! This drama is amazing I don’t even know where to start.
    It is kinda confusing about who the abused child was, and what is the true relationship between Do Hyun, Ri On, and RI Jin. While it’s nice to keep us guessing, but the waiting is no fun at all. I can’t wait for the drama to solve all the mysteries.. and give us Nana and Mr. X (like in person) too! curious
    Also, Ji Sung & Hwang Jung Eum seriously need to get those best couple trophies at MBC drama award. The chemistry is sooooo great! Love them like DoRi love each other.
    Oh and dear Ji Sung oppa, I really hope that Daesang trophy will be yours! I mean, Cha Do Hyun can seize that tiny possibility in front of Se Gi, right?! May God’s will favors you.. 😉 Just know that to me, you have earned yourself a Daesang. 축하합니다! =D

    1. I am aware that we can never get the right answer..until the drama gives us the ultimate revelation, yet we continue to guess and guess and guess! Well, the only uplifting fact is that we’re getting near to Wednesday!

      They deserve all the awards, really. Dear MBC, don’t forget them at the end of this year! ^^v

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