Kill Me, Heal Me – Episode 11

The wait is over for episode 11! Honestly, the last few days felt extremely long for me, especially after the absence of preview at the end of episode 10. That didn’t make the wait any better, but it does make me anticipate this week’s episode even more. While I’m enjoying this episode and cackling, I can’t ignore the fact that we’re really getting closer to the secrets of the drama, and it doesn’t seem that we’re in for a beautiful childhood story. Maybe I should get ready and buy lots of Kleenex for the next few weeks…

[Episode 11]

“Why did you bother me? Did you know how hard it was for me? My father..”

Those lines were uttered by Se-gi, as he paid a visit to his father and his hand reached for the oxygen tank..

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..but when the guards sent by Chairman Seo arrived at the nursing home, Se-gi had disappeared, bringing along his father with him. The CCTV there were all destroyed by Se-gi. Ri-jin was still at home, making some coffee as she recalled her conversation with Dr. Seok earlier. She wondered if Do-hyun was abused during his childhood, because both Se-gi and Madam Shin’s reaction suggested so, but Dr. Seok only knew that Do-hyun had extreme fear of the basement but that was the limit of Do-hyun’s memory. Ri-jin was sure that Se-gi was holding on to Do-hyun’s lost memories, and it was possible that Se-gi was born out of Do-hyun’s strong desire to seal the memories of his childhood. She received a call..and it’s from Do-hyun!

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Ri-on was in the middle of burning his documents and pictures of Do-hyun when he overheard Ri-jin talking to someone else outside the house…and it was Se-gi, who somehow found his way to Ri-jin’s house. He asked her, if she would like to take away Seungjin and he offered to give it to her. Or if she didn’t want it, then he could take it away and destroy it with his own hands. Ri-jin only thought that he was trying to cause trouble again, but his eyes were different this time.

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Se-gi: Then, don’t kill me. I don’t want to disappear. It’s okay for me to be Cha Do-hyun’s illusion too, as long as I can stay beside you. Let’s go..with me. Let’s go.

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Ri-jin didn’t say anything; her tear rolled down her cheek and Se-gi held out his hand. She held his hand, but Ri-on stopped her before she could do anything. Ri-on warned Se-gi not to cause any problem but Se-gi could only recall Ri-on’s words before tearing up. Unlike his usual demeanor, Se-gi let Ri-jin’s hand go and didn’t even stop Ri-on from bringing Ri-jin into the house. Se-gi yaaaa ㅠㅠ

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Ri-jin demanded to know why on Earth Ri-on was acting like that, not to mention his strange actions lately, but he only explained that he’s doing it for her sake. Although he used to tell his sister that he will always believe her, Ri-on was firm with his decision this time, pleading for Ri-jin to have some faith in him, because she would thank him later when she remembered the moment in the future. Awwwh Ri-on, stop torturing yourself!

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The secret investigation by her bodyguards at the nursing home yielded a single CCTV recording there, showing Se-gi entering the place and passing through the camera…but he noticed it and knew that someone would be watching it, and pointed out at the person, who was Chairman Seo. That was…kinda creepy, and Chairman Seo probably felt like that too, since she fainted out of shock after watching that recording.

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Ri-on didn’t actually lock Ri-jin inside her room and later that night, Ri-jin went to his room and apologized, knowing that he’d be listening to her.

Ri-jin: Sorry. No matter how I think of it, I have to go. You said it to me back then, “You’re pro, so you have to make the choice.” I’d like to be responsible of my choice until the end. Although I don’t really know how this will turn out, to me, it’s impossible for me to quit this game. It might be that I have been immersed into the game. It feels like I have a responsibility too.

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Ri-jin decided to leave without saying goodbye to their parents as she might change her mind after looking at them, so she asked for Ri-on to help her this time. Ri-on mulled over her words on the other side of the door and Ri-jin walked out…before Ri-on smacked her head, offering to give her a ride to Do-hyun’s house since she didn’t bring her car. Ri-jin tried to make him piggyback her but failed. How can you not love these two siblings?! They arrived in front of Do-hyun’s box house and Ri-jin suggested that they did something they used to do back when they were kids, but Ri-on refused to do it…

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..but he did the ‘opening’..and was that a parody of Team Rocket from Pokemon? I LOVE THESE TWO.

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Ri-jin went inside the house without looking back and Ri-on was there, sending her off with teary eyes and a smile. Gosh, stop it 😥 You’ll break your heart, Ri-on!

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The house was quiet and Ri-jin thought that Se-gi had already went to sleep, but he was sitting in the living room. She wondered why he was still up…and Se-gi was afraid that he would disappear if he slept. Ri-jin recalled her conversation with Dr. Seok again, this time about her getting confused between Se-gi and Do-hyun. She used to, but now she didn’t, because Se-gi would become Do-hyun and vice versa in the future. They resembled each other and she’s hoping that they would come to understand and make up with each other. After all, wasn’t Se-gi the broken piece of Do-hyun’s wounded self? Perhaps, the scar Do-hyun wanted to hold hands with and give a hug the most was Se-gi, after all.

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Se-gi then asked Ri-jin the reason she returned; was it for Do-hyun or him? He concluded that she was still unable to make up her mind, but Ri-jin offered her shoulder for him to lean on and told him to just sleep. He coolly refused her offer, saying that a man shouldn’t borrow a woman’s shoulder. Heh, trying to be a real men, Se-gi? He hid his face from her but Se-gi looked so calm and closed his eyes with a smile plastered on his face.

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They slept in the living room (I hope their legs won’t be asleep when they tried to stand up!) until the next morning and Se-gi went “Guess Who?” at Ri-jin when she woke up. Ah, as if she couldn’t tell it’s him from his voice alone! Se-gi’s all smiles after the good sleep, but Ri-jin wondered if Do-hyun would never return at this rate. Please don’t lose hope, lady!

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The news about Chairman Seo reached Ki-joon’s father, who told his son about it. Ki-joon was advised to try and bring some more people to their side, as it was the best time to do so and it would be more helpful with his upcoming engagement. Secretary Ahn talked to Ri-jin through the phone and decided that he would make the excuse for Do-hyun not to come to the office, but Ki-joon overheard everything and told him to bring Se-gi to his office. Yeeesh.

Meanwhile, at the house of Do-hyun, now co-owned with Se-gi…

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..Ri-jin was presented with a wheel of fortune to help her in making her decision, choosing between Do-hyun and Se-gi. LOL it was nowhere near fair but because Se-gi insisted on turning the wheel together with Ri-jin, so she played along with him, giving it a try..and the pointer landed on Do-hyun’s tiny, tiny region. HAHAHAHA! That’s what people call karma, Shin Se-gi! And his changing face? Hilarious.

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(Some kids need to learn their lessons the hard way)

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Ri-jin had to make Se-gi calm down after the sudden turn of event and consoled him that it was void. Hahaha! He totally looked like a kid whose toy had been taken forcefully from him! But then, Ri-jin made a proposal to him: how about giving it a try to persuade her with his best point? He refused to do so at first and Ri-jin demanded to know why he posed as Do-hyun and tried to destroy Do-hyun’s life, and Se-gi insisted that Do-hyun destroyed his world first by taking her away. LOL Ri-jin shouted that she’s not his yet and he should try to maintain Do-hyun’s pride as long as he’s there. Who knew, maybe he could fare better than Do-hyun? He had to follow three simple rules: not to get angry, not to use violence when he’s angry, and not to tarnish each other’s reputation, or else..she would treat the unfair wheel’s result as the final outcome. Se-gi stopped her (like Do-hyun did!) and agreed to her conditions, albeit being so reluctant about it. Do it for her! Hahaha!

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First step: to abandon his golden jacket and bling-bling shirt for Do-hyun’s boring suit for the sake of Do-hyun’s reputation, and the boy couldn’t even tie his necktie. Hehehe. Luckily Ri-jin’s there to help him..and it’s kinda cute to see them like that! Awwwwwh~! Ri-jin suggested that they toned down the hair a bit but Se-gi wasn’t going to let her touch even a single strand of his perfect hair. That’s his joy and pride, and their negotiation would end if she mess with his hair. Nope, no one could mess with Se-gi’s signature hair except he himself!

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Chae-yeon was having a fitting session for her wedding dress (or engagement dress?) with her mother and Madam Yoon, but her mind was not entirely with her enjoying the moment like a normal bride should be. Her mother could see that something was off with her but she made an excuse to use the washroom, and we got to hear what Se-gi told her on the night he went to her house. He basically poured Do-hyun’s heart content and congratulated her for her engagement, but made an irresistible offer: they could still meet each other secretly, even after she got engaged to Ki-joon. It was a temptation that wasn’t easy to ignore!

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Se-gi and Ri-jin made it to the office safely but Se-gi loosened up the necktie once they entered the building. Heh. He tried to make Ri-jin throw away the bribe bag (the one she received from Madam Shin) and took off the necktie. These two were rapping/arguing in the middle of the building’s lounge and thank God for the kindergarten teacher Secretary Ahn, as was there to save the day from the two kids. Se-gi needed to meet Ki-joon at that moment and the obedient kid chanted his motto of the day: no anger, no violence, maintain the reputation as he headed towards Ki-joon’s office. Trust Ri-jin to control him!

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Se-gi was all ‘I’ll show you the sole of my shoe!’ at Ki-joon, sitting like he had all the time in the world, while Ki-joon was giving him the next task he needed to complete: to renew the contract with Rocking’s leader, J.I. The problem was the idol demanding the leading role in a movie under their company as his condition to sign the contract, and it was impossible since his acting was not the best. Se-gi had to make it happen since the contract was worth 80 billion Won. Dang, that’s a lot of money! Se-gi thought that Ki-joon was trying to mess with him but he’s holding his anger, at least this time around.

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This Rocking was the same group whom Yo-na was a big fan of and Ri-jin was worried since Yo-na and her had a brawl in front of the group during their fanmeeting, so the leader might be able to recognize them. Se-gi was focusing on getting his job done and went to meet J.I. (LU:KUS J-one), whom he called as Nae-ai (my child?). HAHAHAHA! Not a good way to start the conversation with a wrong name! J.I. soon realized that the person in front of him was the fanatic ahjusshi fan he saw before and thought that Se-gi disguised himself as a fan to make him sign the contract. Ohhhh you don’t mess with, or point your finger at Se-gi like that!

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J.I. walked out of the room after deciding that the discussion was over, but Se-gi chased after him and grabbed his collar, threatening to bury him underground silently if he didn’t comply with him. Ri-jin walked out…and Se-gi switched into his gentle self, grabbing J.I.’s arm like he was so in love with the idol. LOL for one second, I thought Yo-na had appeared! J.I. wondered if Se-gi really liked him and Se-gi, putting on his best puppy eyes as he could, asked if the idol really wanted to act in the movie.

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I couldn’t believe that Se-gi actually gave J.I. the chance to show off his acting chops (he had none) and even complimented the kid as matching the latest trend of bad acting. LOL did Se-gi spent most of his time watching gag shows? He walked out after ordering both contracts for the movie and the renewal to be prepared with a satisfied look on his face. Ri-jin followed him out and she blurted out that Do-hyun would be the one facing the consequences later, causing Se-gi’s mood to turn sour at once. He was disappointed that after what he had done, she still brought up Do-hyun’s name in front of him. He had enough of playing Cha Do-hyun at the company and decided that it’s time to play with Ri-jin.

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Off they went to the arcade, playing virtual fishing (Ferry would like this!) and car racing games. Why did they look like students ditching school? It had to be those coats! They fooled around in the photo booth and couldn’t they be any cuter?! They doodled over the photos, with Se-gi writing “You’re my star” and “Choose me!” while Ri-jin drew ears on his photos. Kekekekeke! Se-gi then kept staring at Ri-jin and decided to bring her to a place..

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..which turned out to be the cosmetics shop, because he thought that her makeup was horrible. Hahahaha! He offered to buy the whole set for Ri-jin and she accidentally brought up her worry over Se-gi spending Do-hyun’s money. She tried to cover it up, offering to pay it herself but Se-gi was still annoyed to hear Do-hyun’s name again. He suddenly got curious about the lip gloss and applied some on his lips. Hehehehe was that Yo-na unconsciously making him pick up one for her?!

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The two of them passed by the place where Ri-jin told Do-hyun about her reason to help him and her wish to see his personalities to merge into the one and only Cha Do-hyun. She made a request to Se-gi, suggesting that it’s time for him to share with Do-hyun the memories and the pain he had all this while, so that both Do-hyun and him could be at ease. Unlike Se-gi, Ri-jin thought that Do-hyun grown stronger and Se-gi should give him a chance. Se-gi decided it’s time to go back to the company since it felt like he’s in a love triangle with Ri-jin and Do-hyun. Awww did you just realize that now?

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Ri-jin apologized for her mistake of being too nosy when they got off the car and Se-gi seemed to have recovered from his anger, but Secretary Ahn approached them with the news that Chairman Seo was looking for Se-gi. Se-gi made the decision to drive back home Secretary Ahn, while Ri-jin was to stay at his office. But then, Ri-jin received a call from Mama Ji, threatening to come and find her wherever she was if she didn’t come home at once. She was let off the hook thanks to Daddy Oh and she showed the cosmetics she bought earlier. When asked about the chaebol she worked for, Ri-jin made her mom promise that she won’t tell anyone about it. Gosh, really?! But then, Ri-jin only told her mom that she couldn’t tell her. Phew!

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On their way to Seungjin mansion, Secretary Ahn wondered if Se-gi had something to do with Chairman Seo suddenly losing her consciousness the night before. Se-gi didn’t even try to deny it and the secretary warned him that it won’t benefit him at all if the fact about Do-hyun suffering from DID was known to the elders, so he should be careful. Se-gi was curious on who would be at more disadvantage if the truth was unveiled to others: Do-hyun or him? Chairman Seo was alive and well, going into her chamber of secrets behind the huge portrait of her late husband to retrieve a document of the company with a 50 billion Won cheque. So…would Se-gi get Seungjin to fall into his hands??

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The chairman was expecting Se-gi when he arrived at the mansion and he went into the study alone, asking about her decision. He remained nonchalant when asked about his father’s whereabouts and Chairman Seo grew agitated at Se-gi, who turned a blind eye on his father who saved his life because of his greed. Se-gi exploded when his grandma brought up the fire incident 21 years ago, pointing out that he shouldn’t be the one saved; instead, they should had saved the child to be considered humans. Chairman Seo made up her mind not to hand over the company to him and Se-gi bid his goodbye, since his grandma had chosen Seungjin over her own son’ s life. Chairman Seo had her bodyguards ready to follow after Se-gi this time.

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Ri-jin was looking for Ri-on and entered the messy bedroom of her brother. While she was trying to clean up the mess, she knocked down a box on his desk, revealing his notes and documents related to Seungjin, complete with pictures of Do-hyun. Ouch. Ri-jin confronted Ri-on, demanding to know the reason why he was following after Do-hyun with such interest. She could sense that it was related to Ri-on’s warning for her not to bring up anything about Seungjin in front of their parents. Uh-oh! What are you going to say, Ri-on??

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Se-gi drove back but his mind was still focused on the thoughts of the child, repeating over and over again that they should have saved the child instead of him. Chairman Seo’s doubt about his memories sent him into another fit of headache and Do-hyun started to take over his mind, waking up in the basement again. Do-hyun saw his young self with another child there, but someone opened the door to the dark basement, ready to hit the child. Little Do-hyun protected the child, and the dark figure was revealed to be his father, Cha Jun-pyo (Ahn Nae-sang)…

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Se-gi somehow ended up safe and sound on his father’s bedside but it was Do-hyun, finally regaining his consciousness after a while. He was taken aback when he realized that he was there with his father, but he grew restless when his father’s fingers started to move. Do-hyun put his arms over his head in a defensive mode and he fell from his chair, begging for his unconscious father’s mercy like a helpless child..

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[END of Episode 11]

I wanted to believe that it was Do-hyun, but a tiny part of me was still in doubt, thinking that it could be Se-gi, whose fear might have been triggered when he saw that his father could move, even just a twitch. For now, I’m still hoping that it’s Do-hyun, because he needs to prove to himself that he will be able to stick with his promise, that is to face his own fears and be honest with himself.

Chairman Seo’s words got me thinking: what if Se-gi’s memories were not accurate? Human brains tend to believe what they want to believe and there’s a possibility that the memories were somehow twisted along the line. What if Do-hyun’s guilt made him believe that he was also abused although he was just a witness at that time? It’s not clear whether he himself was the victim, but the abuse did take place and it didn’t matter who became the victim; it was very unfortunate, and I just feel even more heartbroken with more clues being unveiled about the secret past.

It was worth wondering too, about the reason why Chairman Seo kept hiding her son Jun-pyo from the other family members. Was he declared dead officially, or was he hidden for the sake of covering the ugly past? Was she afraid that Madam Shin, or even Do-hyun, would do something to her precious son, especially after Do-hyun regain his long-lost memory, like what Se-gi threatened to do?

EDIT: 4-hour sleep was probably enough…right?

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I like how Ri-jin sees Do-hyun and his broken pieces; instead of treating them like different persons, she knows how to deal with them, because she has gotten to know more about Do-hyun when she was beside him. She tries to be rational with Se-gi and tolerate his behaviour, but she knows when to be persuasive and when to be submissive. She has to be given the credit to be focused on bringing the broken pieces of Do-hyun together, especially in persuading the most difficult one, Se-gi. She never give up. Although she can be seen as slacking when she follows his every wish, that is probably one of her ways to make Se-gi at ease. Why she picked the place Do-hyun kissed her as the place to convince Se-gi? I think that it was a brilliant move by her, because deep down, Se-gi is still a part of Do-hyun and he did seem to be tamer than usual. Although he’s still avoiding the subject, at least he didn’t do anything and decided to walk away from the place with the ‘love triangle’ vibe.

It might be a bit of a stretch to believe that Ri-jin is the only person who can control Se-gi and wrap his around her fingers at times. Se-gi existed because of Ri-jin in the first place; she was his world, and he’s basically orbiting himself around her. Se-gi insisted that Do-hyun made him to become his pain vessel but it could be that Se-gi was ‘born’ out of his earnest desire to protect Ri-jin. She was the reason he could exist, so there’s no wonder why only Ri-jin could appease him, and he would somehow become weak in front of her. That’s why..he wanted to stay beside her no matter what it takes. He probably hated Do-hyun for being too weak and unable to protect Ri-jin. He wanted to replace Do-hyun not only because he wanted to live as the one and only Shin Se-gi and escape Do-hyun’s shadow, but also to make up for his mistakes and his shortcomings when he was young.

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Who doesn’t miss Do-hyun? I am missing him a lot (LOTS!), but I think the drama did well in giving Se-gi as much screen time as Do-hyun. It’s time for us to realize that in the end, they’re the same person with different faces, under the name Cha Do-hyun. No matter how much Se-gi wants to run away, he can’t deny that it will be impossible for him to escape from Do-hyun and his past. Instead of picking one out of the two personas, the drama is trying to talk some sense into us the viewers, persuading us into choosing them all – Do-hyun and his alters – instead of only one, just like what Ri-jin did. All of them deserves a big hug! And Ri-jin too!

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(Because they’re precious!)

Ri-on, oh Ri-on, the hunter Orion! What will you do now? Will you protect your sister with your lie again, or will you spill the beans..one by one? It will be even more heartbreaking if he doesn’t have any connection to the whole secret except for being Ri-jin’s adopted sibling but he ends up with more scars. Am I really going to see lots of tears (and shed even more) in the next episodes??

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(internal wailing)

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49 thoughts on “Kill Me, Heal Me – Episode 11

  1. It was so intense today! Can’t wait for tomorrow!
    Now we kinda know what happened before the fire??? At least that kid SeGi is talking about is RiJin, although we don’t know if the child the elders are talking about is the same. We also know that DoHyun got abused by his father, which might have been the reason why SeGi was created.

    1. Episode 12 will probably be even more intense!

      If there’s another child involved, then it will get a bit complicated before we reach the conclusion! The abuse part is surely going to be painful for us 😥

  2. OMG!!! I was soooo caught in the reading that I didn´t notice that my boss was calling me at my phone ooopppss!!! :S.I enjoy today episode, was cute and sweet, still miss Do Hyun, but Se Gi is lovely. I specially enjoy the tide and bickering part 😀
    I notice that the child in the basement is a little girl and she was abuse by Do Hyun´s dad. Do Hyun was there protecting her, but the confuse part is that he´s telling her “don´t go, to stay and play”. Well, tomorrow is another day and a new episode, can´t wait!!!
    Thanks again for you hard work!!! sleep and rest well. Read you again tomorrow 😀

    1. Hahahaha! Oops tell your boss I’m sorry for distracting you 😉 Se-gi is stealing hearts left and right (as if he isn’t doing that already!) but Do-hyun will return soon-ish, so be patient!

      It was probably the child who was abused at first but little Do-hyun got involved when he tried to protect her. He was probably telling her that line when she was thought to be dead during the fire, because she suddenly left him behind.

      Thank God it’s already Thursday! ^.^

  3. Thanks do much for the fat and lovely recap.
    Never knew I would end up liking this drama so much. What I love is how the deep moments are interspaced with lighter moments.

    1. Me too! It was love at first sight with this drama…and here I am, obsessing over this drama! Heee the comedic intervals are gold and balance the intense scenes. At we can go back to the funny moments when the plot gets heavier…ah, I have to prepare my heart and tear ducts in advance!

  4. Ok, so I think that Ri Jin/Na Na is definitely the child in the basement with Do Hyun. My guess is Do Hyun father might actually be mentally ill, a fact that the Chairman never wanted to recognize of her son, and after President Min died he started taking revenge on her daughter or something, which resulted in Ri Jin being locked up in the basement and being abused by him. Do Hyun was always there to protect her, but along the way his memories of those events got twisted up. It might also be that when the fire happened, Do Hyun thought that she died, which resulted in his heart almost literary being shattered into pieces (I just die when I think about that). A different scenario would be that they were both abused as children by the insane father.

    Although I am 98% sure the child is Ri Jin, the scenario would basically be the same with Ri On, except it wouldn’t explain why Do Hyun and Ri Jin knew each other as children (which is why I think she is the child).

    Phew, this episode was basically great, and tomorrow cannot come faster.

    1. Ohhhh I like your theory there! It makes sense if there’s something wrong with Do-hyun’s dad..if not, why did Chairman Cha prefer his daughter-in-law than his own blood? The more makjang-ish explanation would be Jun-pyo being Chairman Seo’s son with another man, but that is more like a weekend drama’s plot. Heh.

      Jun-pyo being insane will explain lots of the questions, especially why he abused Do-hyun and then saved him from the fire, hurting himself in the process..everything about the past spells disaster and pain for almost everyone 😦 Will it be better if they just live on without digging the buried past and chasing after the lost memories. It’s my wishful thinking but this is a drama, after all…

      1. At this point I feel like my happy ending for the drama would be Do Hyun and Ri Jin just leaving for America together and living there happily ever after away from everything.

        But damn it, then I remember Se Gi and I am so conflicted! He is such a lost and sad puppy, my heart breaks for him! I don’t want him to die!!

        1. My thought exactly. Leave all those company stuff and chaebol life behind and just live on the island together, dear Do-hyun and Ri-jin!

          Saying goodbye to the alters won’t be easy but I believe that the brand new, stronger, improved Do-hyun will live his life to the fullest in his alters’ stead. :’) Uggghh why I get all teary thinking about this?

  5. Dear… KMHL fever never leave me started from episode 1 (since Shin Se Gi appear!) I really have too much feels for this drama. kyaaaa Fell in love with every personalities! badass Se Gi, funny-satori-ajushi Perry, OMG Yo Na -chasing-kpop-oppa! haha.

    And yes I reaally LOVE your recap!! Thank you for recapping every episode faster than other goddess recappers :p

    Since i’m working during the day, I’ll watch this episode tonight! yay can’t wait to see adorkable Se Gi!!

    1. Kekekeke we’re all like that, aren’t we? The drama dragged us into its world without us realizing it! You’re welcome, and thanks for dropping by and leaving your comment! It’s much appreciated 😉 Enjoy your ‘date’ with Se-gi later!

  6. Thanks for the recap!!! It’s my first time comment here after delurking your website for a while…
    Since the early time i watched KMHM, I wished that some of the actor/actress from Moon Embracing The Sun or Royal Family will make a cameo scene in here. And my wish is granted!
    Ahn Nae Sang and Kim Young Ae are starred in both of the drama, and Jung Eun Pyo ( my favorite eunuch!!) also appear. Is it push my luck if I wish Yeom Jung Ah also make a cameo??

    As for the episode, it’s really breaking my heart watching the scene where both adult and child Se Gi (or Do Hyun?) try to shield himself from his father. And your point about Se Gi’s memory being not accurate got me thinking, is there anyone who trully know the truth about what happened without any biased feeling or intention? But i guess that would be a little bit against the nature of the mystery side of this drama.
    I hope those preview where Grandma Seo slap Do Hyun is not an indication that Cha Do Hyun’s world already ruined by Se Gi…

    1. Awwww thanks for leaving a comment :3
      Hehehe glad that I’m not the only one who thought that this drama is like a mash-up of Royal Family and MoonSun! Ji Sung, Kim Yoo-ri, Kim Young-ae, and Ahn Nae-sang were in Royal Family and not to forget the MoonSun cast! We can dream, right? Gaaahh Yeom Jung-ah, or even Jeon Mi-sun..OMG I’m so excited already!

      The wound must be so deep for him to feel the terror even after 20+ years 😦 Poor kid…
      It won’t be weird if the memories of each of the people who were involved in the events were altered accordingly to what they wanted to believe and/or hide…but then, the drama might be too short to deal with the complexity of the altered memories! Hoping that the writer will be able to provide a good explanation and give us a satisfying closure to this story!

      I’m quite worried about Do-hyun and the mess he have to clear after Se-gi but it seems like our puppy Do-hyun is growing stronger during his time away! I believe he will try his best to take care of the situation!

  7. Oh my!!!i really love this drama!!!thanks for the beautiful recap!!!this is my first time comment here after becoming a silent reader for a long time..hehe..what make me confuse here in this episode is if se-gi is appeared because of the guilt by not get to save rijin (as we assume the child in basement) why did he said his father should save that child that he thought was died on the fire since he know that rijin still alive and growth as a beautiful girl..and this make me think the child in basement can be rion too..what you guys think?
    *i wish i should be curious like this too while doing my thesis..hahaha

    1. You’re welcome! Nice name there 😉
      Se-gi probably appeared in the first place, back when Do-hyun was young, out of his guilt of being unable to protect the child/Ri-jin. I guess that the guilt stays until today and he couldn’t stop blaming his father for not saving the child, although he recently found out that the child is still alive and well. Maybe Se-gi still thinks that he doesn’t deserve to be alive all this while.

      I used to think that Ri-on could be the child, but looking at how he’s trying to hide everything from Ri-jin, she might be the child. Just my two cents, but if the drama want to surprise us (and they’re going to do it in a decent way), then why not? I’m looking forward to the explanation! 😀

      1. Yeap..me too!!!..on this episode when se-gi ask rijin does she want the company or if not he will destroy the comp…that’s make me feel that child is rijin..also my two cent opinion just like you..hehehe..thank you for your reply my dear (^^,v)can’t wait for tonight episode!and even i’m not understand what they are talking about since it’s not subtitle yet just looking interaction between rijin and dohyun make me happy!kekeke

        1. There’s no reason for Se-gi to ask Ri-jin that question if she’s not the child, right?! Haaa I’m waiting for tonight’s episode with bated breath! Maybe Mr. X will make his appearance tonight towards the end of the episode?

          Ouch, thinking about watching the alters disappearing at the end alone makes my heart ache..at least we know they’re going to live through Do-hyun :’)

      2. *i love all dohyun alters especially shin se-gi (thats explain my nickname..kekeke)and can’t wait for mr.x and nana appearance and i think i should prepare a lot of tissue when they become one which is cha dohyun T.T

      3. I still want Mr. X to be Do-hyun’s inner sex pot. Why is he called Mr. X? Because there’s x in sex. Duh. <- pervy fangirl thoughts (in regards of the Mr. X comment because I can’t reply to that argh)

        1. HAHAHAHAHAHA this made me laugh out loud!
          I’m honestly curious how he’s going to drink the wine and eat the food in front of him in the teaser…when he’s wearing that mask. Hummm

  8. Thank you for the beautiful recap!

    My heart was shattered to pieces seeing Du Hyun shielding his head from his comatosed father. How scarred and wounded he must’ve been!

    That last line in the preview sounds promising, though. Is Cha Du Hyun finally teaming up with Shin Se Gi? I sure hope so! I thought that was eventually bound to happen since the last episode. Although, they have their disagreements, Shin Se Gi still went to work, saw and resented the way Cha Du Hyun was treated by his cousin and successfully put him in place. So despite it all, he still had Du Hyun’s back. After all, they are in fact one. Also, the imaginary tattoo that’s gotten simpler, I presume, means that he’s starting to come to terms with the truth of what they are. Inseparable. Him showing his sweet side every now then is just like Du Hyun showing occasional annoyance.

    Regarding the preview, I hate seeing Du Hyun begging for forgiveness from the grandma. Seriously? If it’s anyone, HE should the one begged for forgiveness. This puts all Se Gi’s efforts in vain. I honestly hoped he’d go along with the plan and carry out the revenge, just not as severe as Se Gi would. sighs

    This episode has to be my favorite yet. Lot’s of anticipation for the next episode.

    1. It was hard to watch that scene, really 😦

      Your thoughts are spot on. No matter how much Se-gi hates Do-hyun, he still tried (using his own ways, of course) to set Do-hyun’s life straight, dealing with the people who made Do-hyun’s life difficult. They’re like siblings who take care of each other. Do-hyun and Se-gi’s overlapping behaviour shows that they are indeed becoming one.

      I can’t really blame Do-hyun at this point for doing so, because he’s still unaware of the whole picture..maybe when he recalls the past, he will deal with the matter and the people involved in the events! Let’s keep believing him ^^v

  9. I’m back to comment! Haha. I’ve been following this drama closely since the beginning, I feel a certain attachment to it that I’ve been stalking so much threads of this drama. This week’s waiting felt noticeably long because we were deprived of preview last week, and I resisted my urge to read the live recap on soompi last night because I wanted the episode to eat me raw. Crazy, I know. I only finished watching this episode a couple hours ago (as soon as I get off work), but couldn’t resist my temptation to read your recap earlier though. >_<

    Wow, I don’t even know where to start on today’s episode. I’m loving every moment of this drama because it hits all the right notes for me, not that it’s without flaws, but it’s entertaining in the level that brings laughter, pain, anguish, love and dilemma all in one sweet episode! I find myself going back and forth between two characters when they’re really just one guy with his broken pieces. I was so enourmed by Dohyun in episode 8 & 9 that I missed him greatly in episode 10, and I find myself couldn’t properly enjoy Segi’s presence. Today’s episode changed all that for me, I find myself feeling Segi’s pain so much I just want to jump into the screen and hug him!

    I’m just going to go ahead a list a few things I love in this episode:

    -I love that instead of treating Dohyun’s alters as different personalities, Rijin’s been seeing them as his broken pieces and that they are one and will be one once they start to accept each other. I’ve been seeing Dohyun and Segi as two personas despite sharing one body because Jisung really brings them to life as characters, and their striking differences only make it hard for me to choose between them. But Rijin never made a choice because she has always been seeing them as one (as she had said to Segi in episode 5 when he asked her to choose between him and Dohyun), and it made so much sense why she didn’t have to choose because she’s basically loving (she hasn’t admit to this as much) him/them as a whole! It just warms my heart that the choice is invalid because Segi’s been tugging at my heartstring today. And we all know that while Segi was primarily created to cope with the traumatic pain, his existence has also been revolving around Rijin and loving her whole-heartedly, which is why I cried a silent tear when he said to Rijin he was willing to become Dohyun’s shadow as long as he can be around her!

    -I love how tamed Segi is in front of Rijin, and how she cleverly manipulates him into agreeing to her terms, albeit begrudgingly.

    -I love the reaction on Segi’s face when the wheel of fortune stopped at Dohyun tiny tiny region! And I was totally expecting that twist and it still caught me off guard!

    -I love the scene where Rijin was tying Segi’s tie, and he was smirking blissfully like a puppy! (Totally reminded me of Dohyun) I kept wishing he’d sneak a kiss right then right there.

    -I love the rap battle (totally echoed from their argument of touching) and Secretary Ahn coming to the rescue. I just love every comical relief between Rijin and Dohyun with his alters, because without them, this would be one drama choke full of anguish and pain!

    -I love how Rion didn’t objected to Rijin going back to Segi, because even as a brother, I don’t think he has a right to tell Rijin to stay away from Dohyun. Rijin made the choice to become Dohyun’s secret doctor, and I think she reserves the right to decide when she’d like to stop being his doctor and keep her distance. Plus I was so sad when our OTP was separated so suddenly in previous episode. I wanted more of housemate hijinks between our OTP.

    -I love that the moment when Segi earnestly plea to have Rijin by his side. It’s so ironic that Segi fight so hard for his existence (so he can be with Rijin), yet at the same time he fights for Dohyun’s breakthrough subconsciously (by challenging Dohyun to come out and fight in previous episode). It’s heartbreaking that we’re beginning to see the true motivation of Segi’s actions, and his love for Dohyun, but Dohyun has yet come to realize the same of Segi.

    -I love the blissful look on Segi’s face when he was watching Rijin sleep. I don’t know why some people find it creepy to watch someone sleep, but I find it endearing when someone look at a sleeping person with loving gaze. It makes me wish Segi and Dohyun integrates sooner because we’ve been seeing them overlapping each other so much, I want them to get their happy ending with the girl they both love.

    I think I can go on forever about everything I love in this episode or this drama as a whole, but I’m going to withhold. There’s just so much layers to this drama, despite being a rom-com, that we get to analyze and dissect every aspect, every motivation, every character and its development, it’s like a never-ending cookie treats. I love a drama that keep its viewers on their toes, trying to figure out and speculating, and take out the thinking hat.

    I was also watching the poster shoot and some bts earlier, I love how comfortable Jisung and Jungeum are with each other, I think that mainly contributed to their insane chemistry on screen. When they were shooting the poster, Jisung was wrapping Jungeum in his arms, and when the shoot ended, he didn’t quickly let go of her, his hand stayed on her waist as he carried her down the stairs they were on. It was very gentleman of him, and I was swooned! And during the bts of the kissing scene in front of the snowman, they were rehearsing for the scene when Jisung pulled her in and Jungeum commented “are you pulling me in?” and he said “eung” with a loving gaze. I know they were getting into characters, but it felt real for me. I kind of wished Jisung and Jungeum really paired up in real life, sorry Boyoung sshi! These two definitely need to get into another drama after this ends, I’ll be waiting like rabid fans. Hihi.

    1. I wanted to add this, when Rijin was trying to fix Segi’s hair, he stopped her and said it was his last pride, and I was staring at his face thinking, wouldn’t his last pride be the guyliner? I don’t know why but Segi proved to be really comical, with a straight and angry face, I’ve been enjoying him from most of Dohyun’s alters.

    2. “It’s like a never-ending cookie treats”

      I love how you describe this drama, because it really is!

      Se-gi made me like him more in the recent episodes and while I always imagine them eventually merging into one Do-hyun, I realize that I did see the alters as distinct persons at times. This episode made me realize that it was time for me to reset my view, because they are all, in the end, the one and only Cha Do-hyun. Se-gi proved that he could become Do-hyun, and Do-hyun has to make an effort too to understand his alters, in order to embrace the broken pieces of him.

      Heh, Se-gi was putting his tough guy exterior during the necktie scene but he did smile for a short moment! And he was a bit nervous too because he kept looking away! Heeeee~ I think he knew that Ri-jin won’t simply wipe off his manliner…and his hair was cool, so I kinda understand why he was so proud of it! Although he did sacrifice it before for the sake of persuading Ri-jin in episode 5.

      Their good relationship outside the drama translates really well in front of the camera, and they match really well in terms of acting and emotions. Ji Sung seems to be a really sweet guy and a gentleman in real life, so I always think that Do-hyun is almost like his real persona!

  10. Thank you for this Wonderfully written recap. 🙂
    From your comments at the end of the recap, it looks like you’re implying that the other child in the basement was ri Jin? May I ask how you arrived at that conclusion?

    This is what I was referring to . Se-gi existed because of Ri-jin in the first place; she was his world, and he’s basically orbiting himself around her. Se-gi insisted that Do-hyun made him to become his pain vessel but it could be that Se-gi was ‘born’ out of his earnest desire to protect Ri-jin. She was the reason he could exist, so there’s no wonder why only Ri-jin could appease him, and he would somehow become weak in front of her.

  11. This was probably the best episode yet. It flew by in a heartbeat! I didn’t expect Se-gi to be the one that brings the most laughter but the man does something to me that I don’t quite understand. And reading your recaps made me laugh even harder. I missed Do-hyun too though, even when I was enjoying Se-gi so much. Glad that during the ending we get to see more of him, and can’t wait for what unravels in the next episode (which should be tomorrow!).

    Also, I secretly (okay, maybe openly) want the missing child to be Orion but I think based on what has happened that’s a bit of a stretch. Incest, especially the not-so-fauxcest types, pisses me off a lot. But I suppose it wouldn’t make sense for Orion to be the missing child since Orijin triggers so much out of Do-hyun and his little personality tag team. I’m guessing Orion does play a part in these two’s past somehow though since he seems to be a little bit too obsessed with the Seungjin Group. Was this all for Orijin’s sake or does he have his own agenda?

    (Conspiracy theory: Orijin is actually the daughter-in-law’s child with grandpa president. The dad beats her up because he knows she’s not his and Do-hyun, the nice boy that he is, gets beaten up alongside her. When someone was starting to figure out this love affair, in this case Orion’s parents because conspiracy, Grandma wants to bury the evidence to save the company. First she eliminated the perpetrator in a supposed car accident ala Princess Diana. Then it was time to get rid of the passing documents. Someone was stupid to use arson so the house caught on fire. The dad, while abusive, still loves his kid so he saved him and left the girl because he never liked her anyways. So plot twist: Orijin is technically Do-hyun’s aunt and things get complicated. I think I just made my own makjang. Score.)

    I’m loving how things are beginning to unravel though, bit by bit, all flowing naturally. And despite things going even more dark and complicated, the tone is still light and funny (or hilarious, in the last couple episodes). I’m really looking forward to the whole mystery and just hope that the ending has been as good as the beginning. 11 episodes in and it’s getting even better, sadly a rarity in K-dramaland, so hopefully the trajectory is on the up and up.

    One more, I’m glad that Ki-joon and Chae-young are getting a little more action in the past couple of episodes, even when they’re mostly shedding their own selfish light. But hey, that’s better than nothing. As with grandma who’s showing more dimensions to her stony demeanor. I have a feeling she’s really not as mean as she portrays herself to be and has solid justification as to why she hates Do-hyun as much as she does. If I continue with my made-up makjang, maybe because of her discord with her husband, she becomes overprotective with her son, thus everyone doesn’t matter aside from him. I’m amazed by Kim Young-ae’s acting chops. She’s a veteran for a reason. When she got angry with Do-hyun (or Se-gi, I suppose) she showed lots of fear despite desperately trying to remain strong. Aside from Do-hyun discovering his past, I want her to become more vulnerable and honest. I want tears. I demand it.

    (Whoa okay that was a long comment sorry but this episode was so good! Lots of ups and downs in the best possible way. Tomorrow can’t come sooner! Maybe if I go to sleep it will be. It’s getting late. Yikes. The habits you obtain when you’re a drama fan.)

    1. Hahahaha the charms of Se-gi can’t be described using words. He just creeps into your heart and TA-DA! You’ll love him! His stoic expression even when he’s doing the most ridiculous pose cracks me up and Ji Sung must have enjoyed filming his scenes 😀

      Yup. Ri-on being the missing child will be a bit weak at this point of the story, to be honest, because Ri-jin is the trigger and we’ve seen it happening for a number of times already. HA, your conspiracy theory is really interesting! Will the writer go down the makjang route?? Hehehe! Though it will be painful to see Do-hyun and Ri-jin ending up as aunt and nephew with a complicated family ties..

      There’s another theory on DC..Do-hyun’s father was the grandma’s illegitimate son with another man while Ri-jin’s mother was Chairman Cha’s daughter with another woman. That spells complicated with a capital C and has to be the most messed up family ever in kdrama history, if it ever happen!

      I am happy to report that episode 12 will be even better and I have hope that the drama will be able to carry its strength until the end. We will probably have more emotional and heavier scenes in the upcoming episodes but if they can keep up with the light moments to balance the pain, then we’re in good hands! Ahhhh hopefully the ending will be good too!

      I’m a bit wary of Ki-joon and Chae-yeon since they can be pushed to the sideways since we’re focusing more on Seungjin family’s secret. I am so curious about the family members: Chairman Seo, Do-hyun’s parents, Chairman Cha, and President Min Seo-yeon. The elders’ stories will be interesting to be explored: Chairman Seo’s side of the past, and her excessive maternal love too! Although she seems like an iron lady and it’s almost impossible to see her cry, I hope we can see her justification of her acts!

      (I havent’ slept for 20+ hours =.= I don’t think I can fall asleep after watching episode 12!)

  12. I couldn’t read it during the day because of work but I can read all I want during the night this movie is killing me thanks a lot for the recap it is well appreciated since I couldn’t watch those episodes

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