I have the chance to browse through NAVER and DC earlier this day to check out how Kill Me, Heal Me is faring among the Korean fans and I am happy to report that the drama is receiving much love and warmth from the viewers. The rise in ratings is another indicator of the popularity of the show and I am happy, because this show is like a happy bundle of warmth the writer wants to share with the viewers. I am grateful that I’ve fallen in love with this drama, because it has to be the drama fate working out its charms on me!
Enough of the senseless ramblings, this episode is just spazz-worthy for many reasons!
Ri-jin was holding to the promise Do-hyun made when they were in captive, that was to know his name. The wall Do-hyun built around him was slowly crumbling in front of the doctor who had seen him during his worst state and he made the first step, that was to introduce his name: Cha Do-hyun. If that’s not the most heartwarming thing in the world, I don’t know what will be. Hehehe! The hospital was abuzz with the staff heading towards the entrance and Dr. Park found out from the residents that the club guy who dumped Ri-jin before was there to meet her.
Do-hyun accidentally admitted that he treated his injuries himself and Ri-jin teased him, saying that it would be useless for him to lie; she could read his expressions well! She marveled that he kinda resembled Batman (Hehehehe we all thought so too, lady!) and wondered why he was there. He was momentarily distracted by something but then explained that he had something to ask her. Do-hyun must had seen something he couldn’t ignore anymore and asked Ri-jin what ‘those people’ were doing.
Those people were the hospital staff, who were hoarding the revolving door to have a better view of Do-hyun and Ri-jin. HAHAHAHA! She was embarrassed and asked for Do-hyun’s help to fix the misunderstandings caused by Se-gi. He went all-out to flatter the gossip king, the curious queen (who had more questions than Kim Sang-joong), and Ri-jin’s colleage, even acting out like they’re an item. Heeeeee! Still laughing at the ‘my Ri-jin’ part! Their next target was Dr. Park, but he darted away upon seeing Do-hyun’s face. Realizing that Dr. Park was afraid of him after being choked by Se-gi, Do-hyun ran after the frightened doctor and knelt before him to apologize for his behaviour, using the excuse that he was dead drunk that night. Ri-jin witnessed the good-natured side of Do-hyun, recalling Dr. Seok’s words about Do-hyun’s solo fight with his alters.
Ki-joon’s secretary (Kim Hyung-bum) reported his findings to Ki-joon: he couldn’t find any record of Do-hyun being admitted to a hospital, which irked Ki-joon, but he got hold of another interesting scoop on Do-hyun: he was recently seen at the hospital where Ri-jin worked, together with Ri-jin. Her job was what made Ki-joon find it interesting, and he figured out that something was going on since Secretary Ahn had also met Dr. Seok. It wasn’t their first meeting, and Dr. Seok was in the US before he returned to the country four years ago. Hmmmm Ki-joon is like a ticking bomb…or is he a hidden land mine?
Do-hyun and Ri-jin settled down somewhere away from the prying eyes of others and Do-hyun asked if Se-gi made any request to Ri-jin. He found it strange that Se-gi only wanted to play with her and even listened to her, while that guy was usually stubborn. Ri-jin’s identity as a doctor was also news to Se-gi and the guy even thought that it was an ill-fated meeting. Something clicked in Do-hyun’s mind and he came to realize that the first love Se-gi meant was not Chae-yeon, but Ri-jin. Se-gi might have met Ri-jin before, but the club was where she met him for the first time.
At that moment, Se-gi appeared in his mind, answering Do-hyun’s question: Do-hyun was the one who summoned him, from a long, long time ago. It was definitely happening only in Do-hyun’s mind, but it was still spooky to see Se-gi’s smile slowly disappeared. Do-hyun decided that he had to put a distance between himself and Ri-jin, telling her to avoid him and hide from him, or in a worst case scenario, hit him and run away from him. Ri-jin believed that Se-gi was not any different from him, but Do-hyun knew it better that Se-gi was a walking danger. Suddenly, he was hit by another intense headache and Ri-jin went to fetch some medicine; however, when she returned, Do-hyun was already gone.
Do-hyun drove back home and hesitated to answer Ri-jin’s call, but he picked up the phone and reminded her to avoid him at any cost. He also had nothing to do with her: he was neither her patient nor her friend, because he did not need any. He told her coldly not to call him and answer his call, fearing for her safety. Ri-jin was pissed off since she already thought of him as a friend after what they had gone through together, but Do-hyun had a concrete reason for doing so. He kept thinking about what he experienced before, seeing Se-gi in front of him, and started to think that he might be going crazy. He screamed out loud in the care before everything went dark.
A little girl jumped on a trampoline with a little boy, laughing merrily while playing together. The boy transformed into Se-gi and left the girl confused when he asked her to play with him. It was Ri-jin’s dream, so that girl was little Ri-jin. She soon realized that Ri-on was beside her at the hospital and hit him to make sure that she was not in a dream (or a nightmare!) with him. Mama Ji was the one who sent him there, because Ri-jin had not come back home since she was discharged from the hospital.
Daddy Oh was kinda disappointed that Ri-jin returned to work as soon as she recovered but made excuses that she could not possibly stay with them all the time. A friend was there at the Oh family’s residence and commented that Ri-jin did not really resemble any of her parents. He might have touched a sensitive subject, because Mama Ji grew tense at the mention of the twins being so different from each other. She got mad at the friend and Daddy Oh tried to coax her, saying that the friend was just joking around, but failed.
Ri-jin described her dream earlier to Ri-on and it was so clear that it seemed like a reality. She asked whether they had a trampoline at their house when they were young as she thought that the boy was him. Ri-jin’s colleagues didn’t waste the chance to spy on the twins, but Suk-hee the patient thought that Ri-on’s stare was more than a brother. Psychic Husky she is! That comment made the staff notice her (who was on the way to make her escape again) and she had to run away!
Ri-on could not decipher the meaning of the dream since they needed more clues and fished out more from Ri-jin. He laughed when he guessed that another man appeared in Ri-jin’s dream, thinking that it might be her hidden desire, but she insisted that he won’t be able to guess as he did not know the man. Ri-jin finally gave in, telling Ri-on about the confession lines said by Se-gi for her brother to interpret the meaning. He translated those words as Se-gi trying to hook up with her. HAHAHAHA! He earned himself a good beating from Ri-jin and got whisked away at once.
She walked him to the car and suddenly, Ri-on claimed that he remembered where they played with a trampoline. It was at the park and it belonged to another man, not their family. He told her not to think too much about the dream or the other man in her dream, because that guy seemed like someone who would leave her. Ri-on actually lied to his sister about the trampoline because he did not want her to be reminded of her childhood and also to think of the man. Ohhh this is getting more interesting!
Ri-jin sighed at Ri-on’s interpretation of Do-hyun, because she knew how kind he was. Awww! She received a call from someone and it turned out to be Secretary Ahn. He was looking for Do-hyun and Ri-jin learned that Do-hyun could not be contacted after he left the hospital. Ki-joon overheard the call made by Secretary Ahn and he only grew more curious about Do-hyun. It was getting clearer why Ki-joon’s family was so keen on taking over Seungjin, and that was because Do-hyun’s grandfather took it away from Ki-joon’s grandfather, who was his brother. That sounded logic enough instead of simply doing it out of greed.
Dr. Seok was informed about the missing Do-hyun and Ri-jin blamed herself for not holding onto him even after he displayed the alarming symptoms. She described what she saw on the day before and Dr. Seok deduced that Do-hyun might had experienced co-conscious DID for the first time at that moment. It was possible for the alters to exist at the same time with the ordinary person, and in Do-hyun’s case, his alters might had started to have the intention of fighting the owner. Ri-jin recalled all the things Do-hyun said in order to push her away from his dangerous self, but she decided to leave a voice message on his phone, reminding him to stay alert and not to let the other him take over himself.
Do-hyun woke up with a teddy bear in his arms but he was surrounded by broken toys and the image of a younger him getting hit by someone. But then, the door opened..and he was actually inside the wine cellar at Chairman Seo’s house. He noticed a drawing on the floor: a purple teddy bear with a sentence ‘I’M NANA’, and realized that another alter appeared last night. He was about to wash himself when he overheard the ladies arguing in the dining room.
Madam Yoon came for a visit and continued to ignore Madam Shin, which of course irked the latter. Madam Shin doused her rude cousin-in-law with wine in front of Chairman Seo, They dragged everyone into the argument: from Do-hyun to Min Seo-yeon, the household’s deceased daughter-in-law. Madam Yoon was ordered to leave the house, but she had vowed to her half-dead husband that she would make Do-hyun the heir of Seungjin, since Chairman Seo won’t bat an eyelid if the husband woke up. He made a request for her husband not to wake up forever and threatened Chairman Seo about the secret that would hurt a lot of people in Seungjin, and the same secret was the one Do-hyun had forgotten. Madam Shin laughed at Chairman Seo’s words, saying that she was mentally unstable due to brain inflammation, and warned the chairman not to provoke her.
Do-hyun overheard everything and demanded to know what the secret was, but Madam Shin made the excuse that it was just a tactic to get hold of Chairman Seo’s weakness. She encouraged him to be confident in his action since he’s already Seungjin’s heir. He decided to take his leave and realized that he had a lot of missed calls from both Secretary Ahn and Ri-jin. He listened to Ri-jin’s voice message as he recalled his encounters with the lady psychiatrist. Someone called him but he chose to ignore it, since it was from another person he wished to avoid: Chae-yeon.
Chae-yeon was upset that her calls were ignored by Do-hyun and also because of Ki-joon being late for their lunch date. She asked Ki-joon to invite Do-hyun to have lunch together since Ki-joon was his superior, but Ki-joon broke the news of Do-hyun dating to Chae-yeon. She seemed slightly affected to find out about it and threw her phone on the car seat when Do-hyun did not answer her call. The guy was actually on the phone with Secretary Ahn and confessed that he was becoming more dangerous.
Do-hyun told Dr. Seok about his co-conscious symptom, such as seeing his alter with his own eyes, and also the appearance of a new alter. He was sure that this time, the alter was different from any of the old ones: Se-gi, Ferry, Yo-sub, Yo-na, because it was acting like a young child. He could not be sure himself about what had happened and only felt confused. He also threw a heartbreaking question at Dr. Seok.
Do-hyun: Prof, am I possibly…going crazy? Or am I turning into a monster?
Ri-on spent his time alone staring at the big Seungjin blackboard and to be exact, he was looking at Do-hyun’s picture beside the word “WHO”. Now what are you trying to find out, Writer Omega?
Back at his place, Do-hyun chose not to answer Ri-jin’s call and suddenly…his reflection on mirror was not himself, but Se-gi. The bad boy provoked Do-hyun about his intention to retrieve his forgotten past and warned him to live his life like that forever, because he won’t be able to handle the truth. Se-gi’s eyes burned with rage as he admitted that he was the one who had to endure the pain Do-hyun escaped from. Do-hyun threw a punch at the mirror in fury before he realized that the anger made it possible for Se-gi to take over his body. Ack! Se-gi informed him that he was going to meet Ri-jin first. Dang, that was straight out of a horror movie..and Do-hyun was trapped in the mirror. Uhhhhhh no!
Ri-jin was still waiting for Do-hyun to return her call and decided to change Se-gi’s name on her phone to Do-hyun’s. How fitting was that when the suggested word on the phone were ‘Shin Se-gi, Goodbye, Then’ and Ri-jin saved Do-hyun’s name. She got a message from Do-hyun, telling her that he got home safely last night and that he was waiting at the hospital’s entrance. She dashed out of the library..and someone grabbed her hand.
She was so excited to see him and did not realize that everything about him had changed: the clothes, the eyes, and even the styled hair! He asked if she had already forgotten his eyes and confirmed that he, Shin Se-gi, had returned. BING-Oh. Se-gi noticed at once that Ri-jin was disappointed instead of being happier to see him. The text was just his way of getting his confirmation and he’s completed his assessment on her. RESET (or RESTART?), START, and off they went for a scary ride on a sports car. Ri-jin screamed for Se-gi to stop the car but it a futile attempt from her.
Se-gi: There’s no specific time allocated for me. Let’s leave behind this troublesome place, together.
[END of Episode 4]
I think I am going to write more on the even-numbered episodes since the two episodes in a week usually complement each other. Let’s begin with our hero, Do-hyun.
As if it isn’t stressful enough to have multiple personalities inside his body, he now has to fight for the possession of his body with the other alters. Despite the alters being the split version of his original self, they’re very dangerous, not only to himself, but also to the people around him. I have not completely understood DID but the drama is making Do-hyun’s alters as the chunks of memories he wanted to hide and someone he aspired to be. Se-gi is the dominant one, because he feeds himself with Do-hyun’s hidden anger and grows stronger with the passing time. Ferry Park might be his way to live a free life away from the pressing demands of his royal family. Yo-sub and Yo-na are probably his means of escapism that was through suicide and becoming someone else. We don’t really know much about Nana and Mr X yet, but Nana’s appearance might be related to Ri-jin.
At first, I thought that Ri-on was the adopted one in the family, but this episode hinted at Ri-jin being the adoptee. Ri-on was aware of the fact and it was apparent during the scene in which he lied about the trampoline. My theory is that Ri-jin did meet Do-hyun when they were young and I believe that they’re of the same age. That was probably why Se-gi said that Ri-jin called him out, and I have an inkling that Nana is a fragment of Do-hyun’s memory about the young Ri-jin. This makes me even more curious about Ri-on, who seems to be so interested in Do-hyun. Does he know something about Ri-jin’s past, or he knows about Do-hyun’s DID? Curiouser and curiouser!
The first four episodes are mainly about Do-hyun and his encounter with Ri-jin, so I’m hoping to see more of the rest of the cast. Land mine Ki-joon is full of hidden agendas while Chae-yeon is like a cat that feels attracted to a slightly different Do-hyun. The main couple is no doubt the drama’s main asset, as they are both carrying most of the plot and emotional weight through their characters. They deserve all the love, because they are sizzling even as strangers in the drama! And the preview…oh, the preview! Although I’m slightly bummed that Do-hyun is not going to meet Oh Family this week, I am still excited for what’s in store next week! Ohhhhhh bring me my Dori-dori couple!
I’ll be waiting for you, Wednesday! ❤